I don't know if it will work tonight or if f I'll cttb, but I'm a little bit scared to die still.
TheDoomedDoomer
Eternal sleep awaits me
- May 22, 2022
- 140
dustyfurcollector
Specialist
- Dec 17, 2021
- 302
I hope you're feeling calmer whatever happens. I wish you peace again, whatever happens
Mostly drowsy, no physical pain I'm just feeling sad and scared.
I hope you find your peace. Have a safe trip, my friend
KuroiHana
Peaceful Sleep
- Jun 23, 2022
- 8
That is totally understandable if you need someone to talk to we are all here for you
I second this. You could also try throwing on some of your favourite music?
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 44,068
I'm sorry that it has come to this point for you. I hope that you find relief from your suffering in whatever happens.
wljourney
Waiting for the bus
- Apr 2, 2022
- 1,419
How much did you take this time?
Last time you said you "took a sip".
Your past posts suggest that you are flirting with suicide, but you are not quite ready yet.
Please know that this pull&push thing can go seriously wrong when you take SN and don't intend on CTBing.
It's a form of self harm and I understand the urge, but SN is not something to play around with.
Hope you are ok.
Last time you said you "took a sip".
Your past posts suggest that you are flirting with suicide, but you are not quite ready yet.
Please know that this pull&push thing can go seriously wrong when you take SN and don't intend on CTBing.
It's a form of self harm and I understand the urge, but SN is not something to play around with.
Hope you are ok.
locked*n*loaded
Archangel
- Apr 15, 2022
- 9,057
Did you take the appropriate amount for a successful ctb? You can harm yourself if you took more than just a sip, but not enough to ctb. It could put you in a place that is far worse than where you are now. And you may be so bad off that you won't be able to "finish the job", if you will. That would be terrifying for me, I can surely tell you.
Shu
As above, So Below.
- Jan 21, 2022
- 2,487
Explain.
Please because I'm curious what you mean by "could put you in a place that is far worse than where you are now. And you may be so bad off that you won't be able to "finish the job" "
locked*n*loaded
Archangel
- Apr 15, 2022
- 9,057
Well, SN is a poison. Poisons go through your kidneys and liver and can damage, either. Without a functioning liver, you can't live. With a damaged liver, nothing else in your body will work correctly. You may have trouble walking, or moving your arms, or a host of other problems. I worked with a guy who had cirrhosis of the liver and was waiting on a transplant. He came to work but was basically on desk duty because he couldn't stand for long and had trouble walking. The other thing is if you take enough to put you some type of unconsciousness, or near unconsciousness, and get discovered, you will most likely be taken to a hospital, where you will be evaluated and found to be suicidal for attempting suicide. You may be placed in a psyche ward, at least for some period of time, and even when you get out, depending on your circumstances, you may become heavily monitored to make sure you don't try it again. Is that enough? Take some time and do some googling regarding failed suicide attempts with SN, and what effects the poison will have on you. I'm not at all saying that SN is a stupid method to ctb. I'm saying that if you really are bent on ctb using SN, then you better follow the procedures that are known to have successful results, including using the appropriate amounts and taking the required steps in order to get the appropriate amount into your system and keep it there. Antyhing less, and you are just poisoning your body, which will have the effect of harming you, and can, certainly, affect how you function, which may, or may not, impede you from any further attempts, in a multitude of different ways. I'm not going to look it up for you. You should do that on your own. It may damage your motor functions, too, which could hinder you from finishing the job and put you in a much worse place than you are right now.
Atlantian
Member
- May 25, 2022
- 69
Do not take SN unless you're completely confidence that you wantgo commit suicide. Although the recommended dose is 25 mg, it actually takes a lot less to result in death.
The fact you haven't drank it is proof that you're not ready to go. That means you should completely resolve your indecisive feelings and postpone suicide until you're fully ready.
The fact you haven't drank it is proof that you're not ready to go. That means you should completely resolve your indecisive feelings and postpone suicide until you're fully ready.
Shu
As above, So Below.
- Jan 21, 2022
- 2,487
Mind sharing some articles of people that this has happened with using SN?
locked*n*loaded
Archangel
- Apr 15, 2022
- 9,057
You're as capable of finding them on the Internet as I am. I'm starting to not even understand this conversation. Do you not believe that taking a less-than-lethal dose of poison has negative effects on your body? I don't understand why anyone would want to poison themselves with SN at a less-than-lethal dose. To what end does that serve? Too late for me now to even think about looking up things, and by tomorrow I'll be into other things.
Life_and_Death
Do what's best for you 🕯️ I'm............
- Jul 1, 2020
- 7,031
You don't have to do it and no one will think any less of you if you call for an ambulance 
I'm not encouraging you one way or the other. The choice is completely yours. But where you're scared I wanted to remind you that suicide isn't mandatory.
Although judging by your last seen I can only hope you have the peace you wished for
I'm not encouraging you one way or the other. The choice is completely yours. But where you're scared I wanted to remind you that suicide isn't mandatory.Although judging by your last seen I can only hope you have the peace you wished for
yes i agree as little as 2g is enough to be fatal, so yes i too dont understand why anyone is taking it in sips to see what it can do. I think a good blood test is more than enough to check to see what you have. apparently the warnings all over about not ingesting SN unless your ready is not posted enough on here yet
locked*n*loaded
Archangel
- Apr 15, 2022
- 9,057
Maybe it's more above self-harm than actually killing oneself.
wljourney
Waiting for the bus
- Apr 2, 2022
- 1,419
That seems to be the case. Yes.
OP was online June 29. 3 days later it seems.
Shu
As above, So Below.
- Jan 21, 2022
- 2,487
God I hope this person isn't dying right now while reading these posts it's boderline abuse to speak to a dying person with so little respect
Try showing a little kindness
Try showing a little kindness
I dont think anyone is disrespectful mostly concerned. sorry. wishing the best.
concerned and curious because many wanting to follow.
locked*n*loaded
Archangel
- Apr 15, 2022
- 9,057
I agree. I don't think anyone has been disrespectful to the OP in any way. All we can do is go by what the OP is saying and comment accordingly.
Can you mind your own business if you have nothing decent to say. It's people like you who make me want to kick the bucket. I'm going to go slit my wrists.
Do you feel better about yourself now. I thought this community was supposed to be supportive. I got a mental disorder and all you can do is judge me and treat me like a bad disease. I hope you are happy.
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Beer_is_all_I_have
Years of numbness. When will it stop?
- Dec 18, 2021
- 62
@wljourney is very supportive. They were just checking up on you. You didn't indicate whether you intended to CTB or not. So sorry for your pain.
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