I just took 10 tablets of tylenol

[Tearygirl]

I know it won't kill me, but I also know it may hurt me. I took it to forget about my guilty. I couldn't eat anything today, but just drank some water, because I feel guilty about eating or drinking. I can't get away with it. I always think it's all my fault. So I chose physical pain rather than mental pain. I love to hurt myself because I don't want to hurt others. I hope it can make me forget my mental pain even for temporary time. I hope I can get my SN soon, but I can't track them even I bought from multiple companies. I can't track them all. I really wish that I can ctb soon to get away from everything, include my guilty feeling. I just want to be free. Even I am a pro-choice person, I realised that a person's death can significantly hurt others mentally.

p.s. Sorry for my extremely unorganised sentences. I can't even think English well recently.

 

[TrailerTrash]

Hard on liver .... another 10 or 20 and may ruin it ..... sorry you feel this way .... liver failure is painful

 

[Farmmaa]

Probably just make you feel sick is all.... I take more Tylenol with codeine than most people will take in a lifetime

 

[Tearygirl]

Hard on liver .... another 10 or 20 and may ruin it ..... sorry you feel this way .... liver failure is painful

I know already... but I really wanted to be sick.

Probably just make you feel sick is all.... I take more Tylenol with codeine than most people will take in a lifetime

How much did you take?

 

[Farmmaa]

How much did you take?

I take up to1600 mg at least 4 or 5 times a day and have for about 15 years.

 

[Tearygirl]

I take up to1600 mg at least 4 or 5 times a day and have for about 15 years.

Wow. That's too much. Why do you needed that amount?

 

[Sensei]

Don't you think it would be a good idea to visit a hospital? I don't think you will feel better with a damaged liver. Once you're there you could tell them how you feel and they can find someone you can talk to. You obviously need help and you already know that.

 

[TowerUpright]

I wouldn't worry too much about it, if you only did it once. I took a lot more (20?) Passed out, and woke up 40 minutes later. Everyone thought I fell asleep.

How do you feel now??

 

[Tearygirl]

Don't you think it would be a good idea to visit a hospital? I don't think you will feel better with a damaged liver. Once you're there you could tell them how you feel and they can find someone you can talk to. You obviously need help and you already know that.

They'll hospitalise me. I was hospitalised before, and I don't want to be again.

I wouldn't worry too much about it, if you only did it once. I took a lot more (20?) Passed out, and woke up 40 minutes later. Everyone thought I fell asleep.

How do you feel now??

I took a lot more than you before. I slept, and I thought I can die while sleeping. But I woke up, and vomited. Terrible experience ever. And, I don't feel better. The smell from my stomach is terrible. But I feel worse because even this attempt can't make me feel better.

p.s. I can do more than this if I can keep someone beside me. I'm just a terrible attention seeker.

 

[Farmmaa]

Wow. That's too much. Why do you needed that amount?

Because.... this is me exactly 9 years ago yesterday.
I am in pain 24/7.
As with any pain meds for any chronic condition, one builds up an immunity

 

[Tearygirl]

Because.... this is me exactly 9 years ago yesterday.
I am in pain 24/7.
As with any pain meds for any chronic condition, one builds up an immunityView attachment 21814

I'm so sorry to hear that... Do you feel better now?

 

[Sensei]

They'll hospitalise me. I was hospitalised before, and I don't want to be again.

Okay, I can understand that. Is there someone else who can help you?

p.s. I can do more than this if I can keep someone beside me. I'm just a terrible attention seeker.

As you probably already know, there are many good people here who will listen to you if you want to talk. If you suffer, don't hesitate to vent. There's no hate here.

 

[Tearygirl]

Okay, I can understand that. Is there someone else who can help you?



As you probably already know, there are many good people here who will listen to you if you want to talk. If you suffer, don't hesitate to vent. There's no hate here.

Even my counselor threats me that they can send me to hospital when I discuss about my suicidal thoughts. This is unfair. I stopped to visit them because they were ubrespectful to me. And thanks, I think I found the right place for me. No judgment, and pure understanding.

 

[Sensei]

Even my counselor threats me that they can send me to hospital when I discuss about my suicidal thoughts. This is unfair. I stopped to visit them because they were ubrespectful to me.

That is indeed unfair. Would it be possible for you to talk to them about what makes you suffer and not mention your suicidal thoughts?

And thanks, I think I found the right place for me. No judgment, and pure understanding.

You betcha.

 

[Tearygirl]

That is indeed unfair. Would it be possible for you to talk to them about what makes you suffer and not mention your suicidal thoughts?



You betcha.

I never try to get better, and I don't want to. I don't need any counselor or psychiatrist because I know I can't get better. I can't stop saying about my suicidal thoughts because that's the idea what I am thinking most of the time.

They'll hospitalise me. I was hospitalised before, and I don't want to be again.
I took a lot more than you before. I slept, and I thought I can die while sleeping. But I woke up, and vomited. Terrible experience ever. And, I don't feel better. The smell from my stomach is terrible. But I feel worse because even this attempt can't make me feel better.

p.s. I can do more than this if I can keep someone beside me. I'm just a terrible attention seeker.

Actually, this smell(or taste? I think both) is getting worse. I might throw up my tylenol. And the worst thing is, my mental pain never gets better. I couldn't escape by this.

 

[ImsooDone1N]

Sorry that your going thru so much pain.. Tylenol isn't the best pain reliever- tho everyone responds differently. However assuming they were 325mg tablets, if you don't feel unwell & just a general sense of Malaise, I recommend drinking some water & hydrating yourself. Then try to eat some toast or crackers if not hungry. If you really don't feel well, you should seek medical help.

Without a superfluous chemistry lesson on the metabolic route of Tylenol (acetaminophen or paracetamol) simply put, it requires the liver to do a lot of hard work, in addition to its usual workload. The body can deal with the recommend dose (300-500mg Q8h [3 times day]) but any higher puts strain on the liver. Hope you feel better.

 

[Sensei]

I never try to get better, and I don't want to. I don't need any counselor or psychiatrist because I know I can't get better.

It can take time to find the right treatment. You have to be patient.

I can't stop saying about my suicidal thoughts because that's the idea what I am thinking most of the time.

Well, there's a reason I'm here too... What about this: you talk with us about your suicidal thoughts and with a counselor or psychiatrist about the rest?

 

[Tearygirl]

Sorry that your going thru so much pain.. Tylenol isn't the best pain reliever- tho everyone responds differently. However assuming they were 325mg tablets, if you don't feel unwell & just a general sense of Malaise, I recommend drinking some water & hydrating yourself. Then try to eat some toast or crackers if not hungry. If you really don't feel well, you should seek medical help.

Without a superfluous chemisty lesson on Tylenol (acetaminophen or paracetamol) it simply requires the liver to do a lot of hard work. The body can deal
With the recommend dose (300-500mg Q8h [3 times day]) but any higher puts strain on the liver. Hope you feel better.

I appreciate your kind offer, but mine is 500mg for a tablet. I really want to feel better soon.

It can take time to find the right treatment. You have to be patient.



Well, there's a reason I'm here too... What about this: you talk with us about your suicidal thoughts and with a counselor or psychiatrist about the rest?

Yes, I know it takes some time, but I don't have any excess in mind now. I am too fragile person, and my mental is totally broken. The biggest reason that I don't want to see a counselor is because I think they are hypocrites.

 

[Sensei]

I appreciate your kind offer, but mine is 500mg for a tablet. I really want to feel better soon.
Yes, I know it takes some time, but I don't have any excess in mind now. I am too fragile person, and my mental is totally broken.

I can tell that you're fragile, but that's both a good thing and a bad thing. If we would make a list of great poets, musicians, authors, artists, and actors who are or have been fragile it would be very long. You say that your mind is broken and I can sympathise with that, because so is mine. However, broken doesn't mean unrepairable. Admittedly, it can be difficult to find the right tools, but it's certainly not impossible.

The biggest reason that I don't want to see a counselor is because I think they are hypocrites.

Talk to people here then. Start a thread and explain your pain.

 

[Tearygirl]

I can tell that you're fragile, but that's both a good thing and a bad thing. If we would make a list of great poets, musicians, authors, artists, and actors who are or have been fragile it would be very long. You say that your mind is broken and I can sympathise with that, because so is mine. However, broken doesn't mean unrepairable. Admittedly, it can be difficult to find the right tools, but it's certainly not impossible.



Talk to people here then. Start a thread and explain your pain.

Yes, my mind may or may not repairable, but I just don't want to repair it. I might make a thread and discuss about my feelings here, but not now. Because I feel like I'm getting worse. Maybe I should cut my wrist rather than using medicine. However, I'm afraid of knife, so I'm not sure I can do it or not.

 

[Farmmaa]

I'm so sorry to hear that... Do you feel better now?

Unfortunately, no. I have degenerative disease in my neck and nerve damage that continues to worsen... and constant pain in my neck that feels like a knife and causes horrendous migraines. There is no getting better, just continually worse.

Now... if the tylenol is making you feel sick... I would try to throw up as much as you can, then have something light to eat.

 

[Sensei]

Yes, my mind may or may not repairable, but I just don't want to repair it. I might make a thread and discuss about my feelings here, but not now. Because I feel like I'm getting worse. Maybe I should cut my wrist rather than using medicine. However, I'm afraid of knife, so I'm not sure I can do it or not.

There are other ways to punish your body. You can run and do push ups until you puke and every muscle begs for mercy. You can take ice cold showers so your skin screams and you can't breathe.

 

[Tearygirl]

Unfortunately, no. I have degenerative disease in my neck and nerve damage that continues to worsen... and constant pain in my neck that feels like a knife and causes horrendous migraines. There is no getting better, just continually worse.

Now... if the tylenol is making you feel sick... I would try to throw up as much as you can, then have something light to eat.

I can't throw it up. If I do it, I'll never feel better mentally. So I just want to endure this pain. But it reminds me a trauma...

There are other ways to punish your body. You can run and do push ups until you puke and every muscle begs for mercy. You can take ice cold showers so your skin screams and you can't breathe.

Thanks for your ideas. Have a good sleep.

p.s. I sometimes hear ringing in my ear. Is it normal?

 

[Tearygirl]

I can't throw it up. If I do it, I'll never feel better mentally. So I just want to endure this pain. But it reminds me a trauma...
Thanks for your ideas. Have a good sleep.

p.s. I sometimes hear ringing in my ear. Is it normal?

I can't sleep... Maybe I need some help.
Btw, I really need someone to talk with me...

 

[ImsooDone1N]

Yes the ringing in your ears is Called tinnitus. It will subside, but it's common when the body is not in homeostasis, so I wouldn't worry too much about that. Im here to chat; I just replied to your PM. You should really take PeptoBismol (pink bismuth) -it will make you feel much better by coating your digestive tract in a protective layer of natural chalk like material.

 

[Tearygirl]

Yes the ringing in your ears is Called tinnitus. It will subside, but it's common when the body is not in homeostasis, so I wouldn't worry too much about that. Im here to chat; I just replied to your PM. You should really take PeptoBismol (pink bismuth) -it will make you feel much better by coating your digestive tract in a protective layer of natural chalk like material.

Sorry. I don't have that medication now, and I think the pharmacies are all closed.
Btw, please do not leave me alone. I'm too lonely and definitely need someone...

 

[ImsooDone1N]

I'm here, albeit multi tasking (and im stoned, I ate a 40mg space cake & am quite "spaced")... I would recommend the chat room on the site too; always people chatting there if your not on discord.

 

[Tearygirl]

I'm here, albeit multi tasking (and im stoned, I ate a 40mg space cake & am quite "spaced")... I would recommend the chat room on the site too; always people chatting there if your not on discord.

Space cake. Do you live in the part of US where marijuana is legal?

 

[Tearygirl]

Sorry. I don't have that medication now, and I think the pharmacies are all closed.
Btw, please do not leave me alone. I'm too lonely and definitely need someone...

To members who seeing this thread:
Please don't try this. I could barely sleep for about an hour, and woke up again. Remember this is a painful action. Please let me sleep enough... This is too painful...

 

[TowerUpright]

I took a lot more than you before. I slept, and I thought I can die while sleeping. But I woke up, and vomited. Terrible experience ever. And, I don't feel better. The smell from my stomach is terrible. But I feel worse because even this attempt can't make me feel better.

I'm sorry if I sounded like I was minimize your problem. I wasn't, but I can understand how it sounds.

I hope your symptoms subside soon and glad some people have been giving you on-line support.