I just placed my orders for SN and Meto

[56709]

I spent only $39 USD for 100 x meto 10mg and 113 grams of SN...

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It feels so off... In only a couple weeks I may have the means to my end, in my hands...
so secretively and so cheaply obtained...

The guilt of leaving my family this way is hitting me very hard now...
Nothing about the circumstances is ideal or even acceptable but I felt the need to order as I was getting desperate and impulsive....

Now that I feel there is a way out... I feel an ironic sense of calm...
I'm thinking of waiting another few months, now that I have a viable method, and trying to patch things up as much as possible...

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// Another short and vague post from 56709​

 

[Jean4]

Remember. You don't have to take it right away. Sometimes, it is just comforting to know that it is there if needed.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/

 

[Time]

Good stuff, 56709. I can definitely identify.

I spent only $39 USD for 100 x meto 10mg and 113 grams of SN...
so secretively and so cheaply obtained...

Oh, yeah. I remember that feeling... That was back in mid November but it feels like forever ago.

Followed by that "ironic sense of calm..."

now that I have a viable method, and trying to patch things up as much as possible...

And then this... My current situation.

The guilt of leaving my family this way is hitting me very hard now...
Nothing about the circumstances is ideal or even acceptable

Yeah, it's excruciating knowing the pain that most likely WILL come with my ctb. But I know that there will be some relief & even some positives that will come with me leaving. So, these days, I don't feel as bad about my decision.

 

[goldenrods]

where did you get it ? dark web ?

 

[Moonicide]

I spent only $39 USD for 100 x meto 10mg and 113 grams of SN...

​

It feels so off... In only a couple weeks I may have the means to my end, in my hands...
so secretively and so cheaply obtained...

The guilt of leaving my family this way is hitting me very hard now...
Nothing about the circumstances is ideal or even acceptable but I felt the need to order as I was getting desperate and impulsive....

Now that I feel there is a way out... I feel an ironic sense of calm...
I'm thinking of waiting another few months, now that I have a viable method, and trying to patch things up as much as possible...

​

// Another short and vague post from 56709​

Hey, love. I am so happy to hear you have obtained the things you need to have a peaceful departure. I obtained all the materials I need to ctb with dignity and it's nice to know I now have that option to go as I please. I know the guilt can be immense, leaving your loved ones behind... But after a while we find ourselves in a spot where we're thinking, am I living for myself or am I living for others? I've spent so many of my years living for my loved ones... But if the pain is too much endure, it's okay to feel the way you do, love. The way you feel is absolutely valid. And you shouldn't feel guilt for wanting to end your suffering. In the end, it is your life. If you can't find a reason to live anymore, that's totally okay... You don't have to ctb right now, even. Just having that option available at any given moment is a very comforting thing, I agree with that. I know it's so tempting to want to ctb impulsively, but definitely think it through. Is there anything you'd like to do before you ctb? Anything you'd like to leave behind? A letter, etc?

Sending you all of my love and support.

where did you get it ? dark web ?

Are you talking about the Meto or SN?

 

[goldenrods]

meto! sorry should've been more clear. did you acquire a prescription or find a way without one?

 

[mayflower]

I'm nearly ready to order but worried I'll have the police round. I'm in the UK and ready to order from P and G. Anyone in the UK had any problems with this?

 

[56709]

Sorry I've been unresponsive, I've been away for a few days...
As for your questions... first, I'm in the States...
I didn't acquire a prescription...
I want to wait until the shipment is done before endorsing this source... I hope you understand...

 

[Verklempt]

where did u buy it? and can u send me the link?

 

[6ixxy]

I'm nearly ready to order but worried I'll have the police round. I'm in the UK and ready to order from P and G. Anyone in the UK had any problems with this?

You'll be fine :) got mine no worries

where did u buy it? and can u send me the link?

Sourcing is against the forum rules, try searching the forum or using the pph, it'll show you where to go.

 

[Verklempt]

You'll be fine :) got mine no worries

Sourcing is against the forum rules, try searching the forum or using the pph, it'll show you where to go.

oh srry, i'm quite new

 

[6ixxy]

oh srry, i'm quite new

It's okay, try looking through this https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-megathread.1156

or this

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/

 

[Verklempt]

It's okay, try looking through this https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-megathread.1156

or this

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/

thanks! :)

 

[sleepy dog]

Sourcing is against the forum rules, try searching the forum or using the pph, it'll show you where to go.

Why search the forum if sourcing is against the rules? They won't find any source on the forum because its against the rules. Correct?

The rule states - "We don't allow any transaction or offer for transactions on the forum. This website is not a marketplace."

Reading that, then asking for somebody to give a link to a source in a private message doesn't seem to be against the rules. Please don't try to enforce rules you don't understand.

oh srry, i'm quite new

The rule states - "We don't allow any transaction or offer for transactions on the forum. This website is not a marketplace."

Asking for a link in a private message does not seem to violate the rules.

 

[6ixxy]

Why search the forum if sourcing is against the rules? They won't find any source on the forum because its against the rules. Correct?

The rule states - "We don't allow any transaction or offer for transactions on the forum. This website is not a marketplace."

Reading that, then asking for somebody to give a link to a source in a private message doesn't seem to be against the rules. Please don't try to enforce rules you don't understand.


The rule states - "We don't allow any transaction or offer for transactions on the forum. This website is not a marketplace."

Asking for a link in a private message does not seem to violate the rules.

He didn't even mention anything about a link via PM, just in general. Please get off your high horse I was giving general advice.

Why search the forum if sourcing is against the rules? They won't find any source on the forum because its against the rules. Correct?

The rule states - "We don't allow any transaction or offer for transactions on the forum. This website is not a marketplace."

Reading that, then asking for somebody to give a link to a source in a private message doesn't seem to be against the rules. Please don't try to enforce rules you don't understand.


The rule states - "We don't allow any transaction or offer for transactions on the forum. This website is not a marketplace."

Asking for a link in a private message does not seem to violate the rules.

Also FYI

Post or request personal information, website links, or sources of ANY kind.

• Don't post personal information of anyone, no matter if the information is public or not, or if you have been given permission or not. This includes posting personal information of providers, website links to providers (e.g., ebay, onions, upload sites, independent sellers), and contact information of yours or someone else.

 

[sleepy dog]

He didn't even mention anything about a link via PM, just in general. Please get off your high horse I was giving general advice.

Also FYI

Post or request personal information, website links, or sources of ANY kind.

• Don't post personal information of anyone, no matter if the information is public or not, or if you have been given permission or not. This includes posting personal information of providers, website links to providers (e.g., ebay, onions, upload sites, independent sellers), and contact information of yours or someone else.

The only person on a high horse seems to be you.

 

[protonic76]

I believe Family is the most important thing that delays people from ctbing. I did not read anywhere but how pure is this SN that you got?

Also, the rules email that I got when joining I remember reading not to share links of providers. Listen to @6ixxy she is right.

 

[6ixxy]

I believe Family is the most important thing that delays people from ctbing. I did not read anywhere but how pure is this SN that you got?

Also, the rules email that I got when joining I remember reading not to share links of providers. Listen to @6ixxy she is right.

He* ;) but thank you

 

[protonic76]

He* ;) but thank you

Sorry lol. I read "she could swim" in your avatar in a hurry and thought you are she.

Thank you again for giving correct advice regarding not letting out the provider's name. I like your comments.

 

[6ixxy]

Sorry lol. I read "she could swim" in your avatar in a hurry and thought you are she.

Thank you again for giving correct advice regarding not letting out the provider's name. I like your comments.

Not a worry, if you need any help or advice you know where to find me :)

 

[angie]

Why search the forum if sourcing is against the rules? They won't find any source on the forum because its against the rules. Correct?

The rule states - "We don't allow any transaction or offer for transactions on the forum. This website is not a marketplace."

Reading that, then asking for somebody to give a link to a source in a private message doesn't seem to be against the rules. Please don't try to enforce rules you don't understand.


The rule states - "We don't allow any transaction or offer for transactions on the forum. This website is not a marketplace."

Asking for a link in a private message does not seem to violate the rules.

Well i'm in uk and i have read the forums etc and i can't find a source for sn . . don't know why you can't answer a pm with info for someone if they ask ? , it's not as if you are advertising it all over the site ? and it is a pm after all . surely it's allowed in pm ? or am i wrong

 

[sleepy dog]

angie - You are correct. But some people in this world are never wrong.
From the rules page, "If you wish to give out your personal contact information or share sources, do so via PM. "

 

[Bzrluvtriangle]

Can someone send me the source in a PM?

 

[Verklempt]

Can someone send me the source in a PM?

me too