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ecmnesia
the only thing humans are equal in is death
- Aug 30, 2020
- 767
anything will do really. anything powerful enough to keep me going through this shit show until i feel like i can get on my own two feet.
three more years, four at worse, it's all i have to endure. just finishing college will help a lot. I'll be a doctor then. i will have more opportunities. but how to keep going? when meds doesn't work, when you don't trust your own profession, when you have no support whatsoever, when your own family looks down on you because you want to take a break?
i am trying. i'm trying so fucking hard to stay. but everything keeps getting worse and worse, and obstacles are constantly coming and nothing at all helps me. i don't know what to do anymore. i was so sure to ctb this weekend and suddenly I got hope and now it's all gone and I'm left in despair again. i'm losing my mind. o am definitely losing my mind. i've been bad before, but this is a whole new level.
i am sorry i am unstable wreck today, but if anyone knows anything that might help please tell me. i can't take this anymore.
three more years, four at worse, it's all i have to endure. just finishing college will help a lot. I'll be a doctor then. i will have more opportunities. but how to keep going? when meds doesn't work, when you don't trust your own profession, when you have no support whatsoever, when your own family looks down on you because you want to take a break?
i am trying. i'm trying so fucking hard to stay. but everything keeps getting worse and worse, and obstacles are constantly coming and nothing at all helps me. i don't know what to do anymore. i was so sure to ctb this weekend and suddenly I got hope and now it's all gone and I'm left in despair again. i'm losing my mind. o am definitely losing my mind. i've been bad before, but this is a whole new level.
i am sorry i am unstable wreck today, but if anyone knows anything that might help please tell me. i can't take this anymore.