I just lost my best and only friend

[Catch_The_Beaver]

I have never been as broken and lonely as I am right now. A few minutes ago she was crying while hugging me and saying that she will miss me.

I was the one to put a stop to our friendship due to the fact that I will ctb in the next few months and I don't want her to waste any more time with me. I want her to start a new life without me as early as possible for her own good.

I'm finally ready to ctb as she was the only thing holding me back. From now on I have nothing and I am no one.

I don't even now why I made this stupid post.

What holds you back?

 

[TimeToDie]

I haven't seen my best friend in 6 weeks. She's always sick and never in the mood to come visit me despite living just 5 minutes away.

 

[Ladylethal]

My best friend is a fucking joke. She knows I'm losing everything and hasn't spoken to me in almost three months. She only calls when she wants something.
My other best friend was my fiance. He's gone. Everybody is.

 

[Catch_The_Beaver]

I'm sorry to hear about your experiences. I was lucky I guess. However, everything i touch becomes painful and I destroy it, so in a way, I'm the bad friend here

 

[bluesky1972-2019]

Sorry to hear that. It must be heartbreaking. Hope you feel some comfort soon.
I can't say I have any real friends anymore. Just work colleagues. I feel very lonely at times and like an outcast that nobody wants to be with. Almost like people look right through me. I find comfort in the fact I will ctb soon and it's probably best to stay like I am.

 

[Pilum Muralis]

I'm so sorry for your loss. ((Hug))
I hope this doesn't come across as insensitive, but I wish I were as strong as you.
I stay because of my husband. I'm a nightmare to live with, but he sticks around for some reason. I don't have the strength mentally to send him away, and I feel too much guilt to ctb while hes here, because the pain it will cause him.
I just endure, and hope this day is better than the last.