I just had a bliss of fun I haven't had in a long time

[Blutsager]

In the most innocent of fashions, I just played a series of Skribl.io matches with two strangers from Discord. And for the twenty minutes or half an hour I was there, I felt... truly happy. A happiness I haven't felt in months. Truly disconnected from reality, forgetting all my fears. Forgetting all my negative thoughts. Forgetting all my apocalyptic views of the future.
I don't know what to say. Perhaps this should be a positive note. Something I should try to replicate, to feel more often. But this optimism scares me. I feel my optimism will only be met by disappointment in the future. And thus, this happiness of today will only lead to more suffering tomorrow when my positivity is shattered as my reality becomes worse with each day that passes. Remaining negative means I won't feel such disappointment. Remaining here below, I fear not falling.

I don't know what to say. Or what to feel now. That bliss... it felt so good. But I am afraid of making it happen more often.

Am I afraid of being happy again? I think I am, ever since all of this happened.

 

[All an illusion]

Embrace the experience and try to relive it again....Happiness is what matter in this illusion...money..material things...don't mean shit...a happy and content soul will keep you fed.

 

[Blutsager]

Embrace the experience and try to relive it again....Happiness is what matter in this illusion...money..material things...don't mean shit...a happy and content soul will keep you fed.

Thank you.
I am afraid of this feeling.
I feel like... I haven't felt truly happy... with no worries on my mind... for the longest time... I would say ever since January I haven't felt like this...
And it is a feeling that scares me. My god, it feels so alien now. And it scares me. I am afraid of climbing up, for fear of falling. Perhaps I should stay here at the bottom instead.

 

[All an illusion]

That's the thing....they rely on us to be fearful of everything...and i get it....it's def a scary world out there....but just let go of any pre conceived notions and live life....we all think that the world is always staring at us...but that's not the case.....try and feel comfortable in your skin...as hard as that may be....it will free to to greater experiences.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Life is often full of pain, uncertainty and fear. Its moments like these, though, that make it an experience that is not a total waste. So, I say enjoy those moments when they come. Embrace them and hold on to them in your memories.

 

[Brink]

I don't know what to say. Perhaps this should be a positive note. Something I should try to replicate, to feel more often. But this optimism scares me. I feel my optimism will only be met by disappointment in the future. And thus, this happiness of today will only lead to more suffering tomorrow when my positivity is shattered as my reality becomes worse with each day that passes. Remaining negative means I won't feel such disappointment. Remaining here below, I fear not falling.

I see no reason why you can't enjoy moments of personal happiness while remaining politically pessimistic? Joy doesn't have to accompany blind optimism.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

In the most innocent of fashions, I just played a series of Skribl.io matches with two strangers from Discord. And for the twenty minutes or half an hour I was there, I felt... truly happy. A happiness I haven't felt in months. Truly disconnected from reality, forgetting all my fears. Forgetting all my negative thoughts. Forgetting all my apocalyptic views of the future.
I don't know what to say. Perhaps this should be a positive note. Something I should try to replicate, to feel more often. But this optimism scares me. I feel my optimism will only be met by disappointment in the future. And thus, this happiness of today will only lead to more suffering tomorrow when my positivity is shattered as my reality becomes worse with each day that passes. Remaining negative means I won't feel such disappointment. Remaining here below, I fear not falling.

I don't know what to say. Or what to feel now. That bliss... it felt so good. But I am afraid of making it happen more often.

Am I afraid of being happy again? I think I am, ever since all of this happened.

I think you may just have summed up life. No choice but to glean small solaces during pain or you wind up cynical or dead. The trick is seeing it for what it is to you; knowing those small moments won't fix everything, but being able to appreciate them for what they are.

 

[Notabadguy]

Good for you