Venting i just don't understand how people have the energy to keep going

[thecoldest]

most of the time i am so exhausted. basic things like hygiene seem to be too much. every day we have to get up, and eat, and do something to not go insane and i just don't understand how some people do with such ease. for example, i look at my mom and can't imagine being in her shoes. maybe i think this way because i am not currently working, only studying, but it makes me thing if when the day where i have to work finally comes, will i really have the energy for it? we have to live, make money just to keep existing and it's so tiring. well, i am alive too and i keep living day by day, but i do it in a half-assed way. i wanted to have the motivation, you know?
i'm sleepy most of the times too and i don't have any health conditions or stuff like that for that to happen, i just am tired all of the time, and i am tired of being tired. these days i wrote two short stories and after a long time i felt alive, by doing somethig i like, but i can't write all of the time (even if i wanted that to be possible). i don't know, i guess this is just a vent and something that someone probably already discussed here, so sorry if it seems repetitive, i just wanted to share this feeling somewhere. if you feel the same way please leave a comment, i would like to interact with more people! :)

 

[overmorrow]

they are delusional, and scared of death, that's why, sometimes being that afraid will force you, to go forward, they don't live for the experience, they live for the dopamine obtained through the hard obstacles you encounter everyday

 

[thecoldest]

they are delusional, and scared of death, that's why, sometimes being that afraid will force you, to go forward, they don't live for the experience, they live for the dopamine obtained through the hard obstacles you encounter everyday

ah, i wish i were afraid too then... but i guess i can kind of understand it, not feeling that dopamine is hell, i can say that because i definitely don't feel it myself. still seems a bit paradoxical to live that way hehehe.
thanks for the reply!