I hope I get cancer.

[huggablewinter]

I know it's not a painless way to go but a terminal cancer diagnosis would make me relieved. I have a coworker of mine that just got diagnosed with multiple myeloma and I can't help but wish it was me instead. He's in a coma in bed. I wish it were me. If it were me it wouldn't be up to me to kill myself. I want the universe to do it for me because I'm a coward. I'm just trying to survive until I die.

I hope I get to feeling better soon. I have almost turned to prayer.

 

[jaemus12]

I would not want cancer even if I want to die. The road to your death will be brutal. Shit slowly eating you away. Even fast spreading cancer will make sure you know it's consuming your body before it lets you die.

Cancer is ruthless.

 

[BangBangBang]

No you don't want to get killed by cancer
Had this bitch when I was a kid... last stage ( reacted good to treatment)
I was literally a corpse with 24/7 fever vomitting breathing&heart problems chronic cough etc a couple of weeks without diagnosis and I'd be dead
If I had it now I'd be like fuck it not taking any chemo anymore ( it's worse than the cancer itself it's hell)

+ knowing what I know about this world now without a doubt in my mind I would slit my wrists with a smile on my face.

 

[Final Escape]

I know it's not a painless way to go but a terminal cancer diagnosis would make me relieved. I have a coworker of mine that just got diagnosed with multiple myeloma and I can't help but wish it was me instead. He's in a coma in bed. I wish it were me. If it were me it wouldn't be up to me to kill myself. I want the universe to do it for me because I'm a coward. I'm just trying to survive until I die.

I hope I get to feeling better soon. I have almost turned to prayer.

It's always the people who want to die that are so healthy and resilient lol! The irony is annoying. It's always people who don't want kids who have abundant fertility lol! I swear that's how it works. The most shittiest people are often lucky. I'm just talking out my ass this isn't always the case but it does happen.

 

[Vitosaurus]

I wondered about this too. Then there is always peolple saying "no you don't it's worse" on these discussions so I guess I just don't realise how bad it really is.

 

[Help_Me]

Think twice, mate. I don't want to get cancer. This sh*t is gonna be a real pain. I'm living in buttf*ck place full of pro-lifers (i mean their characters and their way of life). Imagine being ill and living among those hypocrites who never heard of euthanasia. This would be a real hell.

 

[Lifeisatrap]

I can definately see where you're coming from. Since having cancer would give me that extra push to follow through. Getting the stuff I need to exit like antiemetics and pain killers would also be alot easier.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

I know it's not a painless way to go but a terminal cancer diagnosis would make me relieved. I have a coworker of mine that just got diagnosed with multiple myeloma and I can't help but wish it was me instead. He's in a coma in bed. I wish it were me. If it were me it wouldn't be up to me to kill myself. I want the universe to do it for me because I'm a coward. I'm just trying to survive until I die.

I hope I get to feeling better soon. I have almost turned to prayer.

i feel you, i want the same for me.. but fastest

 

[JordT]

i hope you get cancer, best of luck

 

[GeorgeEastman]

I look forward to getting it.

It's a family tradition for pancreatic cancer to kill us in our 50s. I figure only 17 years or less until I die of pancreatic cancer. But I also figure if I don't blow my brains out by then, the cancer diagnosis will be just the push I need.

My mom said it felt like poison in her back. Had a bunch of infections everywhere. Ended up dying of a blood clot. She was a life lover though. I never understood it. She wanted to live. I'd trade places with her now in a second. She's out of hell and I'm stuck in it.

 

[Trashcan]

I knew someone who had it. Don't know if you would want it. But if there was another terminal illness that was pretty much asymptomatic, that would be really nice.

 

[N-IsMyHope]

I want to have cancer so I have reasonable reason to drink N.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

guys it's so frustrating not being able to sleep anymore, my life is falling down and i wanna die

 

[Virgo]

It's worth it, but cancer is by far harder than most methods of suicide.

 

[Fcancer]

Well i've had it twice, and it is really not something you want. Absolutely horrible shit.

 

[Smashingairwaves]

Well i've had it twice, and it is really not something you want. Absolutely horrible shit.

Can I ask what it's like? How was chemo?

I've often wished for cancer, or some other life threatening disease. If I got cancer now I'd definitely refuse chemo treatments

 

[YoungThugLover]

Well i've had it twice, and it is really not something you want. Absolutely horrible shit.

 

[Fcancer]

Can I ask what it's like? How was chemo?

I've often wished for cancer, or some other life threatening disease. If I got cancer now I'd definitely refuse chemo treatments

Well chemo does its best to try killing you, without killing you.

Majority of suicide options would be far less painful than cancer/treatment.

 

[TheLastTrip]

I know it's not a painless way to go but a terminal cancer diagnosis would make me relieved. I have a coworker of mine that just got diagnosed with multiple myeloma and I can't help but wish it was me instead. He's in a coma in bed. I wish it were me. If it were me it wouldn't be up to me to kill myself. I want the universe to do it for me because I'm a coward. I'm just trying to survive until I die.

I hope I get to feeling better soon. I have almost turned to prayer.

A few people on here have felt the same (me included), it's a manifestation of how desperately you want to end your life, I understand and can only offer *hugs* at this time to try and ease your pain.

 

[worldexploder]

I heard a lot of people say this before. I think I'd rather die cancer free. It's a horrible disease,

 

[Rose]

It's incredibly painful & horrible

The appeal of it, however, is that it gives you finality. Instead of doing something to get out of this life you can just refuse treatment (which is equivalent to doing nothing) and wait. It gives you a way, however painful, around survival instinct. Around "having to make the decision". It's going to happen.

My grandfather did this, he got cancer & told nobody until it was guaranteed to kill him. He suffered from PTSD & any number of other problems.
He was set, by something out of his control, on the road out. All he had to do was stay on the ride, however bumpy.
I'm never envious of the pain people have to bear, but I do wish I had a situation where saying "no" and just. letting things happen was all I had to do.

It could also give you a push for another method, as "well, fuck, it's happening soon one way or the other"

Idk, I won't turn it down if I get it. I've been handling chronic pain from a previous attempt that's the worst pain I've ever felt, but knowing that just maybe it'll do the job for me brings me comfort. If I had to bear even more of this type of pain to be sure of it, I would.