Venting I hired a hitman online but I got rejected

[honir]

I have been a lurker for some time now. A really close friend of mine happened to have a her bucket kicked by someone she hire. I was in despair for awhile. I never really thought it would affect me so much since we were roomies and no signs of depression coming from her really showed.
She hired a hitman online and apparently, no one knew about it even me. We were supposed to go malling on the day it happened. It was quick. Not sure if it was painless.
The next few days, it got me. I am not sure if I was just sad or lonely.
I rummaged through her stuffs and saw how she got to hire her source.
I was contemplating on doing it as well. Seems she had good reasons for leaving. The world is sick and everything is running on auto-pilot with most struggling to fit. It seems that if you can not keep up, you are left for dead anyway. Goals seem unimportant and everything is focused on survival. You are judged with factors that are laid out by the many. No one understands.
Just as I was about to confirm, I backed out. I guess I am not as decided as my friend was. Such a dick move.
The person I talked to online even tried to talk me out of it. Imagine that. kicking a probable client out. So even death seems to want to reject me. So where do I fit now?

 

[Judy Garland]

I've come to terms that I am going to die by my own hand. I'd be too scared to have a hitman kill me. What method would they use? Would it be painless? Would I know when the hitman would kill me? Don't be ashamed for backing out of that kind of death. I'm afraid too. People were talking about hell on here (they were talking about Buddhism hell, @Insomniac , all of the different areas) and that was added to the list of worries that I have. I haven't lived a good life. I tried to be a good man but I failed at everything good I tried to do. I hope you find peace. And I hope everyone can find peace and cease to suffer. I'm so tired.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

So, this so-called hitman tried talking you out of it and then you backed out? I would think that practice would be commonplace for something like this, just to make sure you know what you're doing and it's what you really want.

Just curious, how much does something like that cost?

 

[whatevs]

Haha, what did the hitman say, that life gets better and there's always tomorrow? The man must be overworked with all the people wanting to exit and just pulled some bullshit.

To be honest, this IS pretty cool if you're a certain type of person. To kill people that WANT to die and get paid? That is some real life Dexter shit.

 

[honir]

I've come to terms that I am going to die by my own hand. I'd be too scared to have a hitman kill me. What method would they use? Would it be painless? Would I know when the hitman would kill me? Don't be ashamed for backing out of that kind of death. I'm afraid too. People were talking about hell on here (they were talking about Buddhism hell, @Insomniac , all of the different areas) and that was added to the list of worries that I have. I haven't lived a good life. I tried to be a good man but I failed at everything good I tried to do. I hope you find peace. And I hope everyone can find peace and cease to suffer. I'm so tired.

Well, religion is also another factor. as a catholic, we are not allowed to enter heaven if suicide is the cause. imagine that. so my family or whoever else cares would be left with shame or something to think about. I just somehow got convinced by the person online to fall back. mentioning that life is precious and that their cause are for those who were maltreated. lots of mumbo jumbo stuff. not only do I feel that I don't even deserve to decide on how I go as it got rejected.

So, this so-called hitman tried talking you out of it and then you backed out? I would think that practice would be commonplace for something like this, just to make sure you know what you're doing and it's what you really want.

Just curious, how much does something like that cost?

When I contacted them, I told them what I wanted. I did not even go to the part on how much it costs as they kept telling me that life is precious and stuff. They told me to reconsider and to look at other things in life. I somehow feel weird now being talked out of it. I was a potential client but got rejected. They wont even have to work on it as I will just show up where they want, etc. I dont know if I got scared or I just got worried about the others who would probably still be thinking about me. Don't know how to fit.

Haha, what did the hitman say, that life gets better and there's always tomorrow? The man must be overworked with all the people wanting to exit and just pulled some bullshit.

would make you feel worse won't it? It is like going to a restaurant and the waiter just tells you to go skip eating or look elsewhere. Like I am not worth their time. But in due respect, they did explain that their are others fighting for their life because of being abused and not being able to fight back. people getting raped or maltreated and unable to get back. and there I was throwing what others are fighting for. it was a weird experience of mixed emotions.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Fascinating story. What country do you live in?

 

[honir]

Fascinating story. What country do you live in?

I am on the eastern side of the planet if laid out on the map.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

No idea where that is but I'm guessing The Asian continent… Maybe Russia

 

[Al_stargate]

I would think hiring a hitman would be much more difficult undertaking in western countries. But if it's available that's an option for sure. If anyone knows someone in the EU let me know.

 

[honir]

No idea where that is but I'm guessing The Asian continent… Maybe Russia

You got the Asia part correct. Would be better to be in Russia maybe? become a conscript and just head on to war with blanks so I go on my own accord? should have taken the offer of ukraine when they were looking for volunteers.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I can see a potential hitman talking to a client for a bit in order to ascertain whether the client actually wants to end their life. That seems normal to me. But, some of the things the OP states that this so-called hitman talked about, to the degree they did, go way beyond that. I don't now what to make of that. It's at least surreal. It's almost like the OP was talking to an undercover LE posing as a hitman, and when the OP contacted them and didn't want to hire them to kill someone else, but instead themselves, it seems the only thing the "hitman" could do was try to talk the OP out of it.

 

[honir]

I can see a potential hitman talking to a client for a bit in order to ascertain whether the client actually wants to end their life. That seems normal to me. But, some of the things the OP states that this so-called hitman talked about, to the degree they did, go way beyond that. I don't now what to make of that. It's at least surreal. It's almost like the OP was talking to an undercover LE posing as a hitman, and when the OP contacted them and didn't want to hire them to kill someone else, but instead themselves, it seems the only thing the "hitman" could do was try to talk the OP out of it.

could it be then that my roomies' demise was pure coincidental and nothing to do with the person she hired? I only got the same source from where she looked into through her emails.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

could it be then that my roomies' demise was pure coincidental and nothing to do with the person she hired? I only got the same source from where she looked into through her emails.

Well...................based on what you said, that your roomie was offed, AND that you found the information regarding the hit she placed on herself on her device, I would say that's a mighty big coincidence. So, your point is well taken. Maybe this hitman has some kind of an issue with suicides? Maybe someone in their family was affected by a suicide? Maybe their "business" was infiltrated by LE? Who knows?

 

[Superdeterminist]

That's bizarre...I would never be ok with someone else killing me. If it works for you, I guess. It doesn't sound like you were rejected though. You said you backed out yourself.

 

[Doombox]

Knowing that someone was going to cap me at some point would make me pee myself.

 

[Sun n showers]

Knowing that someone was going to cap me at some point would make me pee myself.

It would be my saviour

 

[Euthanza]

An online friend once offered to shoot me in the middle of the sea and then let my body sink, but I'm not really sure if he's willing or capable to organize it since my invitation to meet in person was neglected by then, we haven't really had intense talk. Personally I would prefer peaceful method, but certainty is more important.

 

[Doombox]

It would be my saviour

Predator/prey relationships aren't my jam.

 

[Sun n showers]

No relationship needed just monitory exchange to put someone in great pain st peace

 

[Insomniac]

is your friend from the hoods?(serious question). for most people, hiring a hitman is very difficult.

 

[AliceTheGoon]

I have been a lurker for some time now. A really close friend of mine happened to have a her bucket kicked by someone she hire. I was in despair for awhile. I never really thought it would affect me so much since we were roomies and no signs of depression coming from her really showed.
She hired a hitman online and apparently, no one knew about it even me. We were supposed to go malling on the day it happened. It was quick. Not sure if it was painless.

Can you give any details...like what was the nature of the hit, how did it go down?

 

[Monique696]

Knowing that someone was going to cap me at some point would make me pee myself.

You and me both
Especially if you set a time window and have already paid for the "service"
Scary

 

[wanttodie]

i have always wanted to hire a hitman to kill me

 

[Theanswer]

I have been a lurker for some time now. A really close friend of mine happened to have a her bucket kicked by someone she hire. I was in despair for awhile. I never really thought it would affect me so much since we were roomies and no signs of depression coming from her really showed.
She hired a hitman online and apparently, no one knew about it even me. We were supposed to go malling on the day it happened. It was quick. Not sure if it was painless.
The next few days, it got me. I am not sure if I was just sad or lonely.
I rummaged through her stuffs and saw how she got to hire her source.
I was contemplating on doing it as well. Seems she had good reasons for leaving. The world is sick and everything is running on auto-pilot with most struggling to fit. It seems that if you can not keep up, you are left for dead anyway. Goals seem unimportant and everything is focused on survival. You are judged with factors that are laid out by the many. No one understands.
Just as I was about to confirm, I backed out. I guess I am not as decided as my friend was. Such a dick move.
The person I talked to online even tried to talk me out of it. Imagine that. kicking a probable client out. So even death seems to want to reject me. So where do I fit now?

Wow, what a fantastic story! Seriously, you need to produce a movie! Do you need some film connections because I have them. You have experienced a lot and know a lot. Do tell, damn, what do you plan on doing now?

 

[Mia Wallace]

I have thought about this before. I also thought about going to the ghetto and shouting obscenities to the point where I'd get shot. I'd be too afraid I'd get gang raped or something before they would end my life so I decided that was out of the equation

 

[TheBeautifulNightma]

I did consider this method as I felt it was pretty...James Bond-sy.

The listing I found on the dark webs priced it at USD 10,000 for one hit. That exceeded the price of Nembutal, which is peaceful. The choice is pretty easy to make.

 

[sorry-i-need-help]

tbh even if the person doing it was a psycopath who felt no remorse, I would not want to put a stranger through the task of my suicide. what if something goes wrong and they get found out and put in jail just bc i wanted to ctb?

 

[Funeralprincess]

So, this so-called hitman tried talking you out of it and then you backed out? I would think that practice would be commonplace for something like this, just to make sure you know what you're doing and it's what you really want.

Just curious, how much does something like that cost?

So I'll be honest with you. Hiring a hit man is a luxury that only the most financially well off can access. Hiring a hit man is expensive for a lot of reasons (don't ask how I know this because I won't disclose that lol) but here are a few components as to why it costs so fucking much:
1) traveling distance from them to you
2) the expense of the killing itself
3)attorney fees if they supposedly got caught
4) a flee fee meaning they have a couple grand to flee the state if need be
5) the method they choose to use (most times you don't get say in how they're going to murder you)
6) potential hotel stays if they would be coming in for a while before the murder takes place
7) clean up fee. Some hit man do make an effort to clean what they've done and to do that effectively can be costly especially since nowadays there are lots of ways to catch even the best of the best when it comes to killers
8) Level of experience. The more experienced they are the higher the price.

I've heard of costs ranging anywhere from ten grand and up, but most hit men won't just jump on any offer to kill and there's reasons for that. I'm hoping for anyone seeking one out, they have a very heavy wallet because you'll need it.

 

[lofticries]

Talking to my friend's possible killer would give me chills.

Your situation reminds me of when angelina jolie tried to hire a hit man.

Angelina Jolie Once Tried to Hire a Hitman to Kill Her

You might think that Angelina Jolie really didn't like herself if she had to resort to hiring a hitman to kill herself. This happened quite a few years ago when she'd married Billy Bob Thornton and was still known as one of the oddities of Hollywood. She was in a dark place back then apparently...

tvovermind.com

Me personally would be ok with someone killing me so long as I can arrange the method and exact date.

Even the date would be negotiable.

 

[Euthanza]

Rp. 1 million is about USD 67, you read it right