Venting I have waited long enough for things to improve.

[oxymoron]

I have waited long enough for things to improve but things have only fallen off the shelf. I have no other option left other than to CTB.

"History Will Absolve Me" - Fidel Castro

 

[randomz]

Have you tried actively to get better? Even with big changes such as moving/switching jobs etc.? I don't know your situation but still this could help. I hope things get better for you soon :)

 

[oxymoron]

Gave a lot of interviews about 100. All rejects.

 

[ctbUniquectb]

I have waited long enough for things to improve but things have only fallen off the shelf.

I know that fucking feeling

 

[oxymoron]

I know that fucking feeling

Yes. I should have kms long fucking back. Fuck this.

 

[Dead beat dad]

I have waited long enough for things to improve but things have only fallen off the shelf. I have no other option left other than to CTB.

"History Will Absolve Me" - Fidel Castro

Brother I feel your pain on the interview front. That's one of those things that will crush you inside so easily.
I'm so sorry, I don't have anything useful to say other than I'm sorry for your situation.
I know you're in a dark place else you wouldn't be here (as in this forum) but for what it's worth I sincerely hope you can find some light.
Respect brother
DBD

 

[randomz]

I hope things get better for you. Change can come at anytime if you just hold on. In the meantime, you can try distracting yourself and gettinig some rest for your mind.

 

[Cutepoison]

I know the feeling...i dread going to my therapist cuz she'll ask again how I'm doing, and I'm like - ok, I'm going on one last holiday, i know nothing will improve so when I'm back i want out. But i can't be honest, cuz then it's hospital :/ fuck.

 

[oxymoron]

Brother I feel your pain on the interview front. That's one of those things that will crush you inside so easily.
I'm so sorry, I don't have anything useful to say other than I'm sorry for your situation.
I know you're in a dark place else you wouldn't be here (as in this forum) but for what it's worth I sincerely hope you can find some light.
Respect brother
DBD

Doesn't stop there bro. Had tinnitus since 2011. Never considered it a problem. But life kept giving me more gifts like IBS, depression and BPD. Travelled and interviewed for over 3 months. Took 7 flights per 10-12 days. Never took a break. Got rejected for the stupidest reasons ever, you're overqualified, we can't do your visa, we will consider you for next quarter. Fuck off life. I'll not let you win! I'll quit the game, bitch.

 

[Cutepoison]

Fuck off life. I'll not let you win! I'll quit the game, bitch.

This is so well said. Love it.

 

[oxymoron]

This is so well said. Love it.

Only reason I am here is my maa. Cannot stop thinking what she would be left with.

 

[TAW122]

I'm sorry to hear about all the rejections from potential employers and the job market itself. I can relate to your pain and only you can decide how much you are willing to tolerate. Anyways, I wish you peace in whatever you choose to do.

 

[oxymoron]

I'm sorry to hear about all the rejections from potential employers and the job market itself. I can relate to your pain and only you can decide how much you are willing to tolerate. Anyways, I wish you peace in whatever you choose to do.

Dude. Tolerating everything since Nov 2018.

 

[selfhater]

i feel u:(

 

[BadRNG]

I have waited long enough for things to improve but things have only fallen off the shelf. I have no other option left other than to CTB.

"History Will Absolve Me" - Fidel Castro

Entering my fifth year... it's so much worse now..

 

[oxymoron]

Entering my fifth year... it's so much worse now..

Yeah, 2nd for me.

 

[BadRNG]

Yeah, 2nd for me.

They legalized assisted suicide in Germany last week but I don't know the process nor am I sure if they will even allow me to do that since I am 18

 

[oxymoron]

They legalized assisted suicide in Germany last week but I don't know the process nor am I sure if they will even allow me to do that since I am 18

18 way too young. Also you need shit loads of paper work that might range over 1-2 years IG.

 

[BadRNG]

18 way too young. Also you need shit loads of paper work that might range over 1-2 years IG.

I guess I have to do it alone :/

 

[ctbUniquectb]

Change can come at anytime if you just hold on.

... and it could be change for the worse.

 

[randomz]

... and it could be change for the worse.

It could be yes, but the way I see it chances are always 50/50.

 

[oxymoron]

... and it could be change for the worse.

Dude just holding on to life costed me to get fired, losing my visa and much more. What is the point?

 

[oxymoron]

I am tired of sleeping 12 hours a day, playing cards online and driving on the interstate for no reason. There is nothing else left in life and to live for. Fuck this. I do not deserve this senseless suffering.

 

[AlreadyGone]

You are not alone in feeling that way. I truly understand that feeling.

 

[oxymoron]

You are not alone in feeling that way. I truly understand that feeling.

Yeah, living this life one shitty fucking day at a time. Idk what I did so wrong in my life.

 

[ctbUniquectb]

It could be yes, but the way I see it chances are always 50/50.

Sure, but we're not learning the gambler's fallacy in Statistics and Probability class. IRL, shit has been on a persistent down turn for me since birth: well over 3 decades.

 

[wanderlost]

do you have physical health?

 

[wanderlost]

No sorry I meant the OP

 

[randomz]

Sure, but we're not learning the gambler's fallacy in Statistics and Probability class. IRL, shit has been on a persistent down turn for me since birth: well over 3 decades.

I feel your pain. But maybe now is the time that things start getting better.

 

[ctbUniquectb]

I feel your pain. But maybe now is the time that things start getting better.

Things did start getting better, but life is shit and bullets are cheap. pic related