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freedomfreezerstar
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- Dec 14, 2020
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i am planning to kill myself when my family is on vacation or out of the house (they have been going on vacation for some reason during the pandemic, i have been kind of hoping they would give me covid and kill me), but the restrictions look like they are gonna get higher. I am a little bit worried, i feel myself slipping into a self destructive passively suicidal spell again and I get extremely anxious when I feel like I can't suicide. I don't think they are gonna go on vacation for a long time and this increases the chances of them possibly finding me. I started thinking about this maybe a month ago and I didn't plan to live until February, I literally thought I was gonna die right in january, i have not been paying attention in college, etc etc.