Venting I have to be alone

[SophieMakesGames]

I don't want to die alone nor live alone but I am forced to do both, I never wanted any of this, and all i can seem to do my entire life is hurt everyone and ruin everything, people lie and say that's not true I can't hurt everyone and that they aren't like everyone else, then, without fail, I end up hrting them and ruining everything, and they are just like everyone else, no one can handle me or stand me no one can be around me and mostpeople would rather I die then say a word to me ever again and I can't ever be with any human being ever, my family doesn't want me, and I don't really have any friends, I used to, but I've lost them all, no one wants me here, the closest friends I've had all are dead, and I just want it to stop..

 

[Leonard_Bangley39]

At this point, i think it would be better if i just stay alone and not try to find anymore friends. time and time again i fuck shit up and i dont have the strength to change and be better. so the only other solution would be to prevent it from happening in the first place by not making any friends

 

[Good night]

I am in the same boat as you; if it helps, know that you are not alone. It reminds me of the Hedgehog Dilemma from Schopenhauer; I feel like that all the time... I have been alone a lot of times, sometimes because of my own choice and sometimes because people didn't want to be close to me. The truth is that, at some point, I need some human contact, even online. I gather my strength to meet people again; they disappoint me or I disappoint them, and I am left alone for a while, and the cycle repeats itself until eternity.

 

[davidtorez]

I am in the same boat as you; if it helps, know that you are not alone. It reminds me of the Hedgehog Dilemma from Schopenhauer; I feel like that all the time... I have been alone a lot of times, sometimes because of my own choice and sometimes because people didn't want to be close to me. The truth is that, at some point, I need some human contact, even online. I gather my strength to meet people again; they disappoint me or I disappoint them, and I am left alone for a while, and the cycle repeats itself until eternity.

This is a informative post. I love Arthur schopenhauer and never heard of this dilemma. I've learnt something new!

 

[Good night]

Oh, and I was terrible at philosophy. ^^' I don't think we even covered this author completely, or maybe we did, but since he was one of the most recent ones, I may have forgotten. But I don't know; hearing about that dilemma really stuck with me. I'm glad for your response. :)