slaholi
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- Apr 4, 2020
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I was in a chat server and they were discussing how hard suicide is because of our natural instinct to 'want to live'. How someone shouldn't feel ashamed for feeling afraid to die. And how that's a good thing, because it's something you want to be 100% sure about.
We discussed things like meds & alcohol as a way of numbing yourself enough to go through with it.
Someone also said unless you really have nothing left in life, you're never really ready to die. I guess that makes sense, to a certain degree.
But I can't help but wish I were braver, less afraid of death, and more certain of uncertainty.
I'm not certain, not yet because part of me still clings on to what comes next. It's like a book I want to put down but I just. Feel stuck.
I know having hope isn't a bad thing, but for me it really is a detriment because when even when I've come to terms with everything else, I still have my human tendency to cling on, when I don't want to anymore. It's like self sabotage.
Our entire nature and the very core of our existence is centered on the fact that we care about everything, our lives, others, but often I wish I could let go of that part of myself for a second and embrace the uncertainty of not knowing what comes next.
We discussed things like meds & alcohol as a way of numbing yourself enough to go through with it.
Someone also said unless you really have nothing left in life, you're never really ready to die. I guess that makes sense, to a certain degree.
But I can't help but wish I were braver, less afraid of death, and more certain of uncertainty.
I'm not certain, not yet because part of me still clings on to what comes next. It's like a book I want to put down but I just. Feel stuck.
I know having hope isn't a bad thing, but for me it really is a detriment because when even when I've come to terms with everything else, I still have my human tendency to cling on, when I don't want to anymore. It's like self sabotage.
Our entire nature and the very core of our existence is centered on the fact that we care about everything, our lives, others, but often I wish I could let go of that part of myself for a second and embrace the uncertainty of not knowing what comes next.
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