I have the control now

[PursuitofWonder]

Well my package with H arrived today and I now have the power to end my own life at any moment I choose. I am not interested in ctb for the time being as I want to wait for things to feel proper emotion wise. It just feels so liberating however at the same time I'm filled with anxiety. Just sharing my thoughts right now, that is all.

 

[Pookie]

I wish I could go with H. Will you be shooting it up?

 

[Ghost2211]

Feels good doesn't it? Regardless if we intend to use the option or not it is there, and we are no longer helpless and trapped.

 

[Pookie]

Feels good doesn't it? Regardless if we intend to use the option or not it is there, and we are no longer helpless and trapped.

Like a safety net. We all need that safety net for when things get unbearable.

 

[PursuitofWonder]

I wish I could go with H. Will you be shooting it up?

Idk it kind of scares me that I'll mess it up. Considering just snorting since I should have enough, onset is still less than a minute.

Feels good doesn't it? Regardless if we intend to use the option or not it is there, and we are no longer helpless and trapped.

Yeah my only fear is that since I don't want to use it right away I might end up using it recreationally and not have enough later on.

 

[Brokenwithbpd]

Well my package with H arrived today and I now have the power to end my own life at any moment I choose. I am not interested in ctb for the time being as I want to wait for things to feel proper emotion wise. It just feels so liberating however at the same time I'm filled with anxiety. Just sharing my thoughts right now, that is all.

I felt the same way As I walked through Home Depot purchasing my rope