I have no purpose

[FireFox]

Growing up i was always told "life is a gift", " there children with cancer who dont get to live" etc
Personally i now believe my life is no longer worth living. I have no purpose and will never find it. I cant live in a world if i have no purpose.

Everyday i ask myself what do i exist for or why i am here?
- I am not a student anymore
- i am not a girlfriend to anyone
- i am not an employee
I am nothing. Everyday i feel this way.
Life is wonderful for those who found thier purpose in this world.
My family will be devasted if i kill myself but at the same time they will be better off without me.
No arguments
No more worrying about me
I have no purpose
I never knew where i really belonged.
I am 23 i am depressed over my fading youth and wasted life.

 

[LookingOverTheEdge]

I can't tell you what to believe or not, and it would be nothing short of hypocritical for me to tell you it gets better, because I don't want to hear that myself. Maybe it does, maybe it gets worse, who knows.

What I will say, is that I didn't know who I really was or what I wanted to do until my late 20's, and I don't think it's unusual to have these feelings of doubt and lack of purpose. The question I would ask is this. What do you think would give you that sense of purpose? I ask as I have a good job and what seems like a relatively good life on the outside, but what people can't see with me is that I lack the thing I feel I need to validate myself. To give myself purpose.

I'm here for a while if you want to talk.

 

[Thinking]

This is literally me right now. I relate to you so much. Thank you for making me feel more validated

 

[KleinerWolf]

About that job/relationship,
do you envision yourself as part of it?
Things will become reality if you desire something and
actively works on it.

Have a plan, work on each steps of the plan towards your goals.
And try not stress yourself out too much along the way.

if you've already know what you want,
there's nothing that can stop you as long as you perceive it do-able.

Grab your slice of pie. You deserve it.

 

[mr.smileysad]

Growing up i was always told "life is a gift", " there children with cancer who dont get to live" etc
Personally i now believe my life is no longer worth living. I have no purpose and will never find it. I cant live in a world if i have no purpose.

Everyday i ask myself what do i exist for or why i am here?
- I am not a student anymore
- i am not a girlfriend to anyone
- i am not an employee
I am nothing. Everyday i feel this way.
Life is wonderful for those who found thier purpose in this world.
My family will be devasted if i kill myself but at the same time they will be better off without me.
No arguments
No more worrying about me
I have no purpose
I never knew where i really belonged.
I am 23 i am depressed over my fading youth and wasted life.

I feel a lot like you do, it really sucks. Feel free to dm me if you ever want someone to talk to

 

[WornOutLife]

Having no purpose in life used to be my main reason to ctb but then I realized that maybe there was some purpose I hadn't found.

Your purpose could be anything. You say love, work and studying might no be what you're looking for but have you really tried out all the options?

For instance, I used to hate an office work. My salary was very under-paid and I was stressed 24/7!
Then, I found my passion: teaching.

Another example, I thought I didn't like studying until I found out my passion for languages! I just love them!

My point is your purpose could be anything.

It could be make a decent living with an easy job while you enjoy videogames. It could be fall in love when you least expect it to happen. It could even be to make people here feel better!

Just keep looking for it! I'm sure you'll find it.

Hugs and love,

Matt

 

[NothingElseMatters]

sorry but you talk as if job is the best thing in the world, and it is really far from that.

 

[Bigpink]

Life is not a gift, we are thrown into this world, I see no reason to have any gratitude towards something so random and nonsensical. I've had some meaning and purpose to life but what I have now isn't enough to feel I want to carry on living.
Even when I had connection with others I never ever truly felt I belong.

 

[UterEntonaur]

I am nothing. Everyday i feel this way.

I'm sorry that I can't think of any words to help heal the pain but.... your posts/words have always given me help and comfort and I'm sure other members would agree. You may feel like you're nothing but you're something to us

 

[DeadButDreaming]

Even though I am significantly older I am in the same boat. My life is utterly meaningless. If I were to CTB only 2 people would sincerely care, and they are members of my nuclear family. I just wish there were easier ways to CTB.

 

[Superdeterminist]

I am also without any passion strong enough to really motivate me to stay here and endure life's many torments. That one even has to seek out a 'purpose' and that it doesn't occur naturally to us all, is a problem in itself, imo. Another reason to dislike existence.

 

[it's_all_a_game]

If life is a gift, it's worse than even those crappy socks I get for Christmas.

 

[iwanttodie000]

Agreed. It makes me so upset when people say life is a gift. What gift is this and where do I return it? I have zero purpose and zero drive to regain any purpose. Once I hit the point that literally every single thing in life doesn't matter because we're all going to die anyways, it's made me embrace my suicidal thoughts even more so than I ever have previously. You're not alone. I am an empty shell and I hope to end this hell and make my exit from this crazy pointless world in the near future.

 

[Computer Blue]

This thread really gets down to the meat of the matter. About 13 years ago, I went looking for another dog at the local animal shelters and I discovered my purpose after seeing how the animals live there. I had a drive inside of me to minimize the suffering of animals to the best of my ability. I set about building PVC beds for the animals and I am able to give to animal charities. Unfortunately I found that animal suffering is way worse than I ever imagined and that weighs on me heavily. I have been suicidal ever since. Your purpose is whatever you are driven to do and it may take quite a while to find that. In the mean time, I can tell you that helping other souls actually helps yourself.

 

[fred farkle]

I hesitate to say this,I dont want to tell u what to do but you are very young maybe try harder to find a reason to live?

 

[Water-Lily]

Growing up i was always told "life is a gift", " there children with cancer who dont get to live" etc
Personally i now believe my life is no longer worth living. I have no purpose and will never find it. I cant live in a world if i have no purpose.

Everyday i ask myself what do i exist for or why i am here?
- I am not a student anymore
- i am not a girlfriend to anyone
- i am not an employee
I am nothing. Everyday i feel this way.
Life is wonderful for those who found thier purpose in this world.
My family will be devasted if i kill myself but at the same time they will be better off without me.
No arguments
No more worrying about me
I have no purpose
I never knew where i really belonged.
I am 23 i am depressed over my fading youth and wasted life.

Oh my gosh. I am 23 and feel the exact same way. Though I go to college, thats it. I have no boyfriend, never had a paying job, and am just a lump of lard. I do nothing other than school when all my peers are in jobs, paid internships, and are getting shit done while in school. I am a piece of trash. so I can relate

My life was robbed due to an abusive mom so, my life is over