Help I have no idea what to do anymore...

[LuNa23]

Ive been suicidal and tired it before a good couple of times.. and i still want to. but the thing that truly is troubling me is the fact that the only thing holding me back is the one person in this world who i truly love. they love me back too and i know it. im frozen. if i continue this fucking life soon, ill break. and only worse things can go on from there. if i do it, im leaving behind the one person who gives me life a reason to exist. i just.. im tired, i have random panic attacks throughout the day, i always feel sick to the gut. i cant continue this anymore. but i dont know what to do about them..

 

[BipolarGuy]

Ive been suicidal and tired it before a good couple of times.. and i still want to. but the thing that truly is troubling me is the fact that the only thing holding me back is the one person in this world who i truly love. they love me back too and i know it. im frozen. if i continue this fucking life soon, ill break. and only worse things can go on from there. if i do it, im leaving behind the one person who gives me life a reason to exist. i just.. im tired, i have random panic attacks throughout the day, i always feel sick to the gut. i cant continue this anymore. but i dont know what to do about them..

If your name is actually Luna, then I would ask you not to end your life. We need more Lunas in the world....beautiful name like that.

 

[GrumpyFrog]

Hey, Luna. I'm sorry things are so hard for you.
Would you mind sharing what is making life so unbearable for you? Maybe there is some other way to get relief from all the suffering.

 

[Final Escape]

It's a tough spot to be in. I have nobody to stick around for but when I did I was still suicidal often. Now would be the ideal place and time to ctb but yet it's still hard when u get right down to it. I figured I would wait until I literally cannot manage anything anymore. So far I can still kinda manage and sometimes I have ok days vs bad days. If the things I need become inaccessible I figured I will be ready since then my freedom is totally gone anyway and I've got nobody, no support network.

 

[LuNa23]

Hey, Luna. I'm sorry things are so hard for you.
Would you mind sharing what is making life so unbearable for you? Maybe there is some other way to get relief from all the suffering.

im sorry for the late response. ive been going through alot recently and i havent had the mental strength to go on here often. from as far as i can remember, i dont know what true happiness is. this wonderful thing that seems to be powering up everyone around me.its all just empty and meaningless.i think everyone would srsly be better off with me gone. i feel like im lying to myself about this person only to keep me going. i just, im running away from all of my problems. and soon im going to run out of energy and have to make a choice, fast, before they catch up to me.

 

[Silver]

Hi @LuNa23 , welcome.

What problems are you running away from? With help, could they be solved?

 

[LuNa23]

Hi @LuNa23 , welcome.

What problems are you running away from? With help, could they be solved?

no. it all rly comes down to 2 options. i attempt to ctb tmr or do in in a couple months time when i mentally just break.idk whats a better option tho.. i also need to get some guts too. would partial suspension from a window with a 30mm width belt do the job?

 

[Silver]

would partial suspension from a window with a 30mm width belt do the job?

Doubt it. The belt will very likely snap.