Help I have learnt to accept that I won't amount to anything

[LoserInTown]

I have wasted four years of my college; didn't do a fucking thing. No good project, no job, no internships. And it was not if I had a great social life. I had one(or two) persons I talked to, at most.
And if you don't a job in campus interviews, its fucking tough to even get an appointment in a third world country. I know many have tried and succeeded, but are we not all here to make excuses?
If you were a parent , what would you want in the months preceding your child's suicide - would you prefer him/her to be distant to you and fight often, or would you prefer that he had a good connection with you?
Would prefer to hurt my parents as less as possible

 

[ocd is bad]

I'm not a parent but I can't imagine a good parent wanting to have a bad relationship with their kid before they ctb.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

I used to teach college. Based on what you've said, I certainly would not think that you wouldn't amount to anything. It's not unusual to feel subpar, as if everyone is better (they're not) or more prepared (they're not) or less scared (they're not).

I think connecting with your parents would be a good idea. They would want contact with you during what would be a difficult time. I suspect you'll find that they want to help too.

 

[XYZ]

If you were a parent , what would you want in the months preceding your child's suicide - would you prefer him/her to be distant to you and fight often, or would you prefer that he had a good connection with you?

The second option.