Schevan
Future Dead Rodent
- Jan 3, 2021
- 46
My life isn't terrible. I have a family, a mother, a sister that love me. Two other siblings that don't really care about me. Pets that want nothing more than to be by my side. I have a little mobile home that I can call my own now. I have an old car that's all mine. I had a decent job, that I quit, to start a better one. But all of these things, and I still feel like nothing is worth it. I see no true reason to move on in life. It's just more work. The pains that I have will never go away, physical and mental. Forever living in a situation where I don't feel happy.
I don't know what's wrong with me. I tried to get help - therapy, and such. They lied. Told me it was confidential. Everyone "mysteriously" found out by the end of the day. I don't trust them. When they took me to the mental health ward - I felt like I was in prison. Acted fake for them, and lied to them, telling them I was fine. I couldn't stand being locked in like that. Am I just being selfish? I don't understand why I want to drop dead, other than obviously having a relief from life. Despite what I have gained, and the comfortable status I have.
I don't know what's wrong with me. I tried to get help - therapy, and such. They lied. Told me it was confidential. Everyone "mysteriously" found out by the end of the day. I don't trust them. When they took me to the mental health ward - I felt like I was in prison. Acted fake for them, and lied to them, telling them I was fine. I couldn't stand being locked in like that. Am I just being selfish? I don't understand why I want to drop dead, other than obviously having a relief from life. Despite what I have gained, and the comfortable status I have.