Venting I have a lot of love to give - but no one to

[TheHatedOne]

I want to love and care for someone so badly but it's never shared or if I manage to find someone in the end I get abandoned (often also hurt before abandonment). So many people in this world yet I can't find a single decent person to give all my love to and these feelings be shared. This past year I liked/fell in love with like 4-5 men but it was never shared. 2 seemed they shared it at first but in the end they left me. One without any explanation and another one, who was my partner, was an asshole who hurt me a lot before leaving me. Now I like someone else but it's all impossible. What chance would a loser like me have when they already got a lot of people in life? All I have left is my own self hatred.

I want everything to stop.

 

[Apricity]

In love 4-5 times in a year? Must be rough; I've been in love exactly twice in the last 25 years and losing them was hell. Can't imagine what you're dealing with.
Not to minimize your feelings, but have you spoken to a therapist about possible Emophilia?

 

[sanguineblade]

i had soooo much love to give (and have) but got destroyed by physical health problems way too young ::(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

 

[Deleted member 8975]

I used to think love was hard to find. Now I think…easy to find. Hard to hold onto and keep together

 

[TheHatedOne]

In love 4-5 times in a year? Must be rough; I've been in love exactly twice in the last 25 years and losing them was hell. Can't imagine what you're dealing with.
Not to minimize your feelings, but have you spoken to a therapist about possible Emophilia?

never went to therapy and while I'm sceptic about it, I'd still consider going because university really takes a toll on me. Never heard of emophilia before, looked it up. It explains a lot.

 

[TriggerHappy]

Guys, my names Miguel // Triggerhappy and I'm an emophilliac. I thought I was a sexual compulsive, but it really was the true love I was after. I don't remember their names, but I kept their undies as trophies...

 

[Apricity]

Guys, my names Miguel // Triggerhappy and I'm an emophilliac. I thought I was a sexual compulsive, but it really was the true love I was after. I don't remember their names, but I kept their undies as trophies...

Possibly a terrible idea to hang onto those, I'd be glad to hold them for you...

 

[stygal]

I know where you coming from. I'm not into romantic relationship anymore but when I still was - I always seemed to be the one caring a 1000x more.
Sucks to be that way since most people/men (gfs seemed to be a little more caring - but that's my own experience) don't really appreciate it.

The only advise I have: guard your feelings more carefully, take it reaally slow and try not to take it personally whenever it does not work out (easier said than done - I know) :(

 

[TriggerHappy]

Sucks to be that way since most people/men (gfs seemed to be a little more caring - but that's my own experience)

MissK :: wtf ... people/men - ha!ha!
Is that cos men aren't really people or cos we just don't matter..?
Either way, u have a point (a few actually!) Love your honest posts...
Loving relationships are so much work, arent they? ugh.

 

[TheHatedOne]

I know where you coming from. I'm not into romantic relationship anymore but when I still was - I always seemed to be the one caring a 1000x more.
Sucks to be that way since most people/men (gfs seemed to be a little more caring - but that's my own experience) don't really appreciate it.

The only advise I have: guard your feelings more carefully, take it reaally slow and try not to take it personally whenever it does not work out (easier said than done - I know) :(

I don't have any experience with girlfriends as I'm only romantically attracted to men- but I know for a fact that the person I have a crush on now is really caring.

I've learnt to just accept it, suffer and then move on. I'll never find reciprocated love at this point.

 

[TriggerHappy]

take it reaally slow and try not to take it personally whenever it does not work out (easier said than done - I know) :(

 

[Pluto]

I've learnt to just accept it, suffer and then move on. I'll never find reciprocated love at this point.

Same here. I don't even know what love is anymore.

 

[TriggerHappy]

Same here. I don't even know what love is anymore.

Love is a devious, deceitful, deliciously wonderful thing... its why were here....?

I love you whether or not you love me
I love you even if you think that I don't.
Sometimes I find you doubt my love for you but I don't mind.
Why should I mind?
Why should I mind?

What is love anyway?
Does anybody love anybody anyway?
What is love anyway?
Does anybody love anybody anyway?

Can anybody love anyone so much that they will never fear
Never worrynever be sad?
The answer is they cannot love this muchnobody can.
This is why I don't mind you doubting.

 

[TheHatedOne]

I try my best to not give in and breakdown but it's really hard. I feel as life decided for me to only suffer and never experience any kind of love. It's true.

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

I used to think love was hard to find. Now I think…easy to find. Hard to hold onto and keep together

We can choose one or the other, as a society. We have decided on the serial monogamy soul-killer concept.

 

[FuneralCry]

People can be so cruel and awful, they can let us down and cause us pain. That is why I stay away. I'm sorry you feel like this, of course you deserve to find someone who is there for you. I wish you the best.