I hate waking up

[cowbain]

While you're waking, you have no distractions so reality and all of your pain is able to hit you like a truck. Animals are at their most vulnerable between the transition from sleep to wake, so biologically it makes sense. Waking up is the most painful part of my day. It's when I feel the worst. My chest feels heavy and my heart feels like it's aching. Feelings of being a failure, anxiety, dread, and disappointment is able to fully saturate me from head to toe because I have no shield up to protect me. The realization that I'm going to have to spend another day in this hell is excruciating in itself. It feels like impending doom.

 

[MeltingHeart]

I normally hate it as I've had nice dreams and then I wake to reality with a profound sense of panic, dread and regret. I want to back to the land of my dreams.

 

[Throwawaysoul]

It feels like impending doom

This is exactly how it feels to me. Then I groan uncontrollably as is if was in physical pain.

 

[mediocre]

I know exactly how you feel. I experience this every day too. I love to sleep. I'm lucky enough to go into a deep sleep despite my physical pain all over my body. I know a lot of people who cant sleep at all and that must be absolute torture.

However it doesn't repair me mentally or physically. As soon as I wake up I'm in agony again and still feel exhausted.

 

[Meant2Die]

Everyday I wake up, it's like a nightmare. I ask why am I still here, I hate this and I hate my life. I have bad insomnia due to a physical chronic illness, so even at night I can't get much relief. By the morning hours I'm so exhausted I usually can get a few hours of sleep. Then I wake up and it's hell all over again.

 

[JimFord99]

Yeah, me too.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

It's the worst feeling. Waking up and realizing that I'm still alive.

 

[ninthhokage]

It's the worst feeling. Waking up and realizing that I'm still alive.

That's exactly how I feel.

 

[Sweet emotion]

While you're waking, you have no distractions so reality and all of your pain is able to hit you like a truck. Animals are at their most vulnerable between the transition from sleep to wake, so biologically it makes sense. Waking up is the most painful part of my day. It's when I feel the worst. My chest feels heavy and my heart feels like it's aching. Feelings of being a failure, anxiety, dread, and disappointment is able to fully saturate me from head to toe because I have no shield up to protect me. The realization that I'm going to have to spend another day in this hell is excruciating in itself. It feels like impending doom.

I completely agree. I forget for a split second how sick and in pain I am and then all of a sudden it floods my body and mind. I sometimes start to cry.

 

[OnlyMercy]

I am always bitterly disappointed at waking up every morning.

 

[SawItOnce]

While you're waking, you have no distractions so reality and all of your pain is able to hit you like a truck. Animals are at their most vulnerable between the transition from sleep to wake, so biologically it makes sense. Waking up is the most painful part of my day. It's when I feel the worst. My chest feels heavy and my heart feels like it's aching. Feelings of being a failure, anxiety, dread, and disappointment is able to fully saturate me from head to toe because I have no shield up to protect me. The realization that I'm going to have to spend another day in this hell is excruciating in itself. It feels like impending doom.

Yes, same here, every word that you said.
It is in these moments that I feel the truth of what a joke all and any of my coping mechanisms are.

 

[Winniethepooh]

I feel the same way.

 

[tom90]

I used to feel the same until I discovered that I feel better when I started doing my morning routine back from the happy days.
For me it is to wake up, make some coffee, light a cigarette and listening some stupid tv shows from netflix.
And then I take a hot shower.
This really helped me to reduce my morning anxiety which was so bad that even strong pills couldn't reduce it so I started mixing those with alcohol but luckily I quit from that.

 

[SawItOnce]

I used to feel the same until I discovered that I feel better when I started doing my morning routine back from the happy days.
For me it is to wake up, make some coffee, light a cigarette and listening some stupid tv shows from netflix.
And then I take a hot shower.
This really helped me to reduce my morning anxiety which was so bad that even strong pills couldn't reduce it so I started mixing those with alcohol but luckily I quit from that.

It must be amazing to switch from costly dangerous treatment which doesn't even help to something so accessible and fairly healthy. It looks like a big win to me. A mess is always welcome to become less of itself, even if the overall is still bad.

That moment though before one can apply the routine or the techniques or the treatments, all at the mercy of a thousand monsters...

 

[Ark]

I hate waking up. Every single morning I wake up and cry immediately. It is the worst. Not just due to the physical and emotional pain, but alsothe instant realization that I am condemned to this horror for another day.

 

[itistimetoleave]

I hate waking up too. I have no energy to get out of the bed.

 

[NickStanfield]

I have insane level panic attacks that wake me up. Even drugging myself to sleep doesn't stop them. Makes me more than a little crazy.

 

[NeCkDeEp]

Waking up everyday hurts, the fact that I didn't pass away during my sleep hurts.

 

[mediocre]

feel the same. I sleep so long because its the one thing I can do successfully. I don't want to wake up because I have nothing and do the same thing everyday I lye about. I never go out. I'm in so much pain. It's a waste of a life. There is no point of being alive.

 

[Manja]

I hate waking up too...to realize that that I'm all alone in the world is so devastating...no reason to get up except to go to the loo...and I can't even sleep anymore there's a crazy woman in the flat Bellow me that yells and screams all the time...
I just pray when I go to sleep to not wake up again and when I do it's so disappointing...

 

[Ithinkimdone]

The exact same for me. If am lucky enough to fall asleep which doesn't happen often. I'll wake up with a feeling of such dread and utter misery. My stomach in knots my heart aching like it's going to burst and my mind begins racing again. And then doomed to live another day like this.

 

[nosirens]

I dread everyday too. for some reason I do feel a little more at ease at night. but waking up realizing you have to endure another day is the worst.

 

[Sensei]

A comedian in my country, may he rest in peace, who was famous for his dark humour had a saying, loosely translated: "I woke up this morning and it ruined my day." There's much truth to that when I'm at the bottom of the abyss. Nowadays, I self-medicate and float above anexiety and depression, but I can't self-medicate when I'm asleep, so I never get away from the morning terrors. For some reason, I get a sense of impending doom, that it's useless to resist, and that I must kill myself as soon as possible.

 

[justanotherday]

That's exactly how I feel.

I feel the same way... why must I face another day.

 

[digcircus]

Waking up is like being reborn, night after night... and like a new born all I can do is scream!

 

[Passersby]

While you're waking, you have no distractions so reality and all of your pain is able to hit you like a truck. Animals are at their most vulnerable between the transition from sleep to wake, so biologically it makes sense. Waking up is the most painful part of my day. It's when I feel the worst. My chest feels heavy and my heart feels like it's aching. Feelings of being a failure, anxiety, dread, and disappointment is able to fully saturate me from head to toe because I have no shield up to protect me. The realization that I'm going to have to spend another day in this hell is excruciating in itself. It feels like impending doom.

Hello Cowbain, I couldn't agree more. Everyday I wake up I have to relive the hellish nightmare of my sorry ass existence. I haven't slept for 5 yrs so I am basically always awake. Every week Is the same for me. When I wake up all my problems hit me like a bag of rocks and I am already exhausted and defeated and I haven s even done anything. This is because of my messed up body and mind that is also deteriorating at a alarming rate. I could go on and on. Yes I can relate to this totally as it was even hard for me to wake up in my past life when things were good.

 

[c824767]

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I normally hate it as I've had nice dreams and then I wake to reality with a profound sense of panic, dread and regret. I want to back to the land of my dreams.

I hear that a lot

 

[BlueWidow]

I couldn't agree more with the OP and everyone else in this thread. My first thought after waking up is always disappointment and anger that I'm awake again and have to face another day.

I have to say though, as bad as it is now, it was worse for me right after my husband died. I would wake up and, for the first few seconds, I would forget that he was gone. Then it would hit me like a ton of bricks over and over again every day, for nearly a year after he died, that he wasn't in his chair anymore. I couldn't go in and give him a hug and a kiss like I always did. That feeling didn't stop until I moved out of the house we lived in together. I wonder, if I still lived there, if I'd still be having that feeling every morning when I woke up.

Now I just wake up and lay there knowing that it doesn't even matter if I get out of bed because no one's going to even know whether I got up or not. I could probably stay in bed for an entire week and no one would know about it. I usually only get up and get dressed now so that I can get coffee. I'm not even sure why I feel like I have to be dressed and so on to get coffee, but I usually do, mostly because it's just what I do. It's like auto pilot or something.

 

[TheLastGoodbye]

I normally hate it as I've had nice dreams and then I wake to reality with a profound sense of panic, dread and regret. I want to back to the land of my dreams.

I'm the same way. My dreams are almost always way better than reality.

 

[BrokenHopes]

Waking up is traumatic in and of itself. I always try to postpone it as far to the future as possible. Snoozing and procrastinating. It is the most anxious part of the day for me.