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[kittycat089bunny]

Hello everyone.
I'm new here. I've been reading posts anonymously for the past few weeks, and I'm sorry for everything everyone is going through.
I'd like to introduce myself, and just get some advice.
I'm 18, diagnosed with depression, anxiety and PTSD and I hate my life. I want to ctb, but I'm trying to get over the SI, and it's so hard. I've attempted twice before, but sadly no luck.
I've tried to get help but either waiting lists are too long, I'm too tired or something else.
I hate having all of these complex feelings, and it's really too much.
I'm trying to find things to be excited about in life, but I'm having no luck either.
Just wanted to rant a little bit

 

[SinisterKid]

Hi and welcome to SS. Rant all you like, its all part of the service

 

[sammii]

Welcome to SS hun

 

[MourningHeart]

Welcome to SS!
Take your time to vent here. Since this is a pro choice website and you say you tried to get help?, you may want to consider the recovery or offtopic discussion lists as well as this one. Its your choice. Wish you all the best on your ways!

 

[Jean4]

Hello everyone.
I'm new here. I've been reading posts anonymously for the past few weeks, and I'm sorry for everything everyone is going through.
I'd like to introduce myself, and just get some advice.
I'm 18, diagnosed with depression, anxiety and PTSD and I hate my life. I want to ctb, but I'm trying to get over the SI, and it's so hard. I've attempted twice before, but sadly no luck.
I've tried to get help but either waiting lists are too long, I'm too tired or something else.
I hate having all of these complex feelings, and it's really too much.
I'm trying to find things to be excited about in life, but I'm having no luck either.
Just wanted to rant a little bit

Ranting I'd fine. Have you seen a therapist and try medication? Wellbutrin helps me.

 

[kittycat089bunny]

Welcome to SS!
Take your time to vent here. Since this is a pro choice website and you say you tried to get help?, you may want to consider the recovery or offtopic discussion lists as well as this one. Its your choice. Wish you all the best on your ways!

Hello, thank you for responding! I've tried to access help and I've had help, but I've only been getting worse and I feel that ctb is my only option

Ranting I'd fine. Have you seen a therapist and try medication? Wellbutrin helps me.

I've had two counsellors and I'm seeing someone to do a bit of DBT, but I can just feel myself getting worse. The psychiatrist said that I don't need antidepressants, even though I'm severely depressed. It's too tough :(

 

[drake4871]

Honestly anti-depressants can be pretty terrible OP, they'll make you feel good for awhile but once that fades... Regardless wishing you the best :)

 

[woxihuanni]

Sadly welcome, and don't hesitate to vent and share with us. You can also write on the recovery partners thread. Do hang around to see if SS helps before you do anything irreversible, SS has been more of a help than shrinks to many people here.

 

[cowbain]

Welcome, we're the same age and I can relate with a lot of what you wrote (except I've never attempted). If you ever need to talk about things or the mundane cycle of recovery don't hesitate to reach out :)

 

[Scooter]

Welcome to SS! I find it nice to go on a rant every now and again by typing out my feelings, so I understand the feeling to get everything out Hopefully you find your time here to be helpful in bettering your situation, however that may be. Feel free to reach out!