I fucking hate this existence humanity has allowed itself to be in. Where a piece of paper has more worth than human life. Where we destroy the only things that would give some beauty to the world for more pieces of paper. Instead we look at fucking ugly forest of cement where people are packed like mechandise uncaring of one another. Born for what, to be told you can be whatever you want as long as it's what this world requires. To sell your life for 80% of the time you have on this shitty earth and to be left a tired old husk at the end of the day. That's the grandiose life we get. There nothing else to it. It's a big scam.
Literally! Life on this earth is literally a scam. I hate how everything on this planet is about and costs money. I hate the fact that we're expected to work for and earn our livings and have to pay bills and rent and taxes and mortgage. All of these things make me sick and actively suicidal. I hate the fact that I never chose to be here yet it costs money to exist on this planet. It's just so absurd and I hate the pipeline humanity has for itself and life on this planet: get born, school, work, get old, die. I hate the fact that after college we're expected to work for 50 years until we die. I hate that we're expected to become wageslaves to capitalism and buy into this capitalist pyramid scheme and society. I hate that our survival depends on it. Personally I'm planning to ctb before 25 to never have to do this or engage in this soul-sucking stuff
Same. I never felt like I belonged here. It feels like all the forces of this world conspire against me. And have done so since the day I was born. From my abusive mother to... quite frankly... situations that just work against me. For every blessing in my life, there are 20 curses on it. It's like some cosmic asshole is lurking over my existence, playing with me. Toying with me. I feel like, when I ctb, I'll be taking back all the power that entity has over me. I can't wait to leave this putrid planet. Humans are evil and they've made this life hell.
Literally! It's like the universe hates me. I was unfortunate enough to be born with Asperger's/autism on top of ADHD, and from those two conditions social anxiety developed. Asperger's/autism is a curse and I wouldn't wish it on anyone. I agree, life on this planet is literally hell
though i've lived a generally happy life, i never truly felt like i belonged. but what makes you think your friends and family don't feel the same way? it's a rather taboo subject this insecurity. we're all human. i'm sure they have thoughts like these as well. i don't know really. i can really only speak for myself as so should you. not trying to give hope or anything, just don't want you to be hard on yourself.
I think most of my friends are probably neurodivergent as well but I don't even feel like a human being due to Asperger's/autism. I honestly feel like an alien and I feel like I'm just masquerading and pretending to be human. It's not insecurity but rather a feeling of just not being on the right planet. I've always felt like humans were a foreign species to me and I've never related to people. I'm probably the problem here, and it's just annoying that I had to be born on this planet where I don't belong when I could've never existed or rather been born on a planet better suited for people like me (I believe in aliens/extraterrestrial life). This planet was literally not meant or built for me and I was not meant or built for it either. Like I said, it's a bad fit.
