meghead
Member
- Jan 27, 2021
- 19
I really can't deal with this all. I just want to leave. The last I've posted on here was almost a year ago, and I thought I could get better, but I feel so trapped in this state of wanting to ctb. What's been holding me back is guilt. I'm scared for whoever will walk in on my corpse. I've read blogs and blogs about people losing their loved ones to suicide and I'm scared of ruining someone like that. Yet, I also feel like it's selfish to think that I could be capable or important enough to ruin someone. I'm just so confused on what I should do. I just want an escape from it all.