shadow_nova
Tired of everything
- Sep 27, 2024
- 8
I want to be accepted , understood and loved for what I am . An ugly creature like me shouldn't wish for love but I want it . I want love where you love each other and accept everything about each other . To look into their eyes and see the world , to hold their hands and feel the warmth , to hear their voice and love their words . To kiss under the moonlight , to run through flower fields and to feel like we both are the only humans alive on this planet . Let today be Doomsday and I'll be ready to die in their arms . To see their soul and not their body , I want to feel it in my skin , I want to feel like I'm loved . A typa love that goes beyond love , it should consume me . It should be so passionate yet not obsessive , so possessive yet not toxic , so imperfect yet not abusive , so innate and emotional yet not manipulative , such a want but not a need . To be able to be yourself , to have someone accept you as you are , to have their smile breathe life into your rotten soul .
I know I'll never find anyone , I'll never ever be In a relationship because I'm too ugly but a part of me really wants to be loved . I'm seriously considering CTB due to my looks , even surgery won't fix my ugly face i feel . For a second I look atleast " human enough " in the mirror but when I step out and if anyone takes a picture or video of me especially from the back camera I look like a fucking melted monster from some another dimension like I just look so fucking horrible with my face melting from the sides . I feel so fucking depressed about life and my looks just make everything worse . Never been in a relationship , never got asked out , nobody ever had a crush on me and I'm so fucking jealous of people who actually are in relationships knowing that it'll never be me ):
I know I'll never find anyone , I'll never ever be In a relationship because I'm too ugly but a part of me really wants to be loved . I'm seriously considering CTB due to my looks , even surgery won't fix my ugly face i feel . For a second I look atleast " human enough " in the mirror but when I step out and if anyone takes a picture or video of me especially from the back camera I look like a fucking melted monster from some another dimension like I just look so fucking horrible with my face melting from the sides . I feel so fucking depressed about life and my looks just make everything worse . Never been in a relationship , never got asked out , nobody ever had a crush on me and I'm so fucking jealous of people who actually are in relationships knowing that it'll never be me ):