Venting I hate the fact that I couldn't kill myself

[sad_dude]

... even though I followed every instructions in the methods that I can actually do, and even if I'm desperate asf!!!

That's all ig, rant over. Idk why but I also have this strange urge to say sorry all the time. I'm really sorry for being a coward. Really trying here. ://

 

[bunnii]

I totally get how you feel, I failed another attempt last week. It's so frustrating when the instructions make it seem so easy but actually pulling it off takes skill. Depending on your method, you might want to practice more. IK practising for suicide sounds silly but lots of people on here do it. Find your limits and break them. I believe in you and wish you the best no matter what xx

 

[missingpeace]

Please don't be sorry, I drove to a remote location to use SN and came back multiple times, I tried partial hanging and wussed out before at the first feelings of dizziness. It's going to be like that till you succeed.

 

[FuneralCry]

Your frustrations are very much understandable, it's very unfair how suicide is this difficult and complicated, and the fact that suicide is so hard is the only reason as to why I'm still trapped here.
We really shouldn't have to struggle so much to be gone and a straightforward way to leave behind this life is certainly what we deserve the option of after being so unfairly forced here in the first place. It does seem as though there is no relief from suffering as long as one stays here, we both have to suffer in life and suffer when we try to leave this world. This just shows that existing in this world undeniably is hell.

 

[Worndown]

Dying is hard. No need to be sorry.

 

[SenseOfLoss]

You are not alone! Same here… I failed many times (ph) and now I am scared as f… and totally desperate. Searching for another way out…

 

[lan11]

I've failed too and I know how it feels. It's really hard to kill yourself properly.

 

[jessisme]

I'm sorry for the failure and I understand your disappointment and frustration. What method were you using and how did you fail if you don't mind me asking? Attempting and failing in my chosen method is one of my greatest fears. xoxox

 

[VioletNight]

Don't feel bad, I've never been able to follow through with any attempts and just give up every time. Also I feel you on saying sorry so much, I've had people get mad at me for apologizing so much.