Will someone else please tell me what a failure I am and how I'd be better off dead. I am sick of only hearing me tell myself this. I am sick of the fake BS of "you matter" and :you're loved" when I don't want it even if it's true. I know I'm a failure, I know I'm a fuck up and I know what my brain tells me is true that I'd be better off dead. My pm box is always open, someone please tell me the truth about me. I want to die so bad.
Your brain is a Big Fat Liar. I recently realized that and it has made all the difference.
It's not though, I've had depression anxiety issues my whole life and all these fake people do is feed me BS of you matter and we love you and it doesn't mean shit. I know my real value, which is nothing. I can't wait to end this pain and these constant thoughts.
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- Sep 18, 2020
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i know i am, thank you :) And I don't know but it pisses me off, fake ass pplu are a failure .
why do you think people lie to you?
I don't know the truth about you because I only saw a few posts of yours but...
I also hated myself. I did for 21 years. Sure, I had moments of happiness of sadness but at the end of the day I felt a failure and didn't love myself.
I also hate the BS about "you matter", "you're loved", etc but I realized that people can say whatever they want about me. The only one who can really change things for the worse or better is nobody but ourselves.
That's what I'm doing at least and it's working, very slowly, but it is!
I also hated myself. I did for 21 years. Sure, I had moments of happiness of sadness but at the end of the day I felt a failure and didn't love myself.
I also hate the BS about "you matter", "you're loved", etc but I realized that people can say whatever they want about me. The only one who can really change things for the worse or better is nobody but ourselves.
That's what I'm doing at least and it's working, very slowly, but it is!
@iwanttodie000
Absolutely what you said. I hate the crap "they" spew at us. You matter and all that love bologna. What a crock!
All the drugs and psychobabble are such a failure, or at least IMO. It just makes the do gooders feel better. Some will find their own way to "recovery" (I am working on that), some will suffer till the end, whether it be the end they choose or nature's end.
Personally, i think life itself can be one big lie. For now, though, I am choosing which lie I want to live and to hell with the rest.
Absolutely what you said. I hate the crap "they" spew at us. You matter and all that love bologna. What a crock!
All the drugs and psychobabble are such a failure, or at least IMO. It just makes the do gooders feel better. Some will find their own way to "recovery" (I am working on that), some will suffer till the end, whether it be the end they choose or nature's end.
Personally, i think life itself can be one big lie. For now, though, I am choosing which lie I want to live and to hell with the rest.
I'm glad it's working for you and I hope you can continue to get better and continue pushing on. Trust me, I am all of the above and so much more. I hate it when people say that I matter or that I'm loved because I definitely don't matter and even if I'm loved, I don't deserve it and I don't want people to love me. I want people to see me for the real me, the fucked up failure that just wants to die and finally get my peace.
I agree, life is one big lie. I hate that crap too, it's all a bunch of shit to make THEM feel better. It sucks because I have no coping mechanism, I'm not any any meds for my depression anxiety, I don't drink/drugs, so I am literally just tortured 24/7 with my thoughts and the truth of what a fucked up failure I am and how I wish I was dead. What a life ... I get it, trust me, I agree with you.
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