Venting I hate myself

[LonelyPrince]

I hate myself.
I don't deserve anything good, yet at the same time I feel like I do.
I'm not as capable as others.
I'm not brave.
I'm weak.

Nothing feels real. No one feels real.

 

[Dinorun]

I think you do deserve good
So what if you are less capable
So what if you are weak
So what if you are not brave

Those are your characteristics, and I'm telling you they probably wont change (they are usually well reinforced in the head), but you can learn to live with them and you are still capable of great great things if you don't let them stop you.
I feel just like it all day everyday sometimes people need to explain to me something basic twice or three times, sometimes 5 to the point of embarrassment i may be a loser I missed on a lot, only recent years I try to shift the vector of the course of my life from falling 100 to maybe falling 30 with so much work and self hate in the way

It sucks but part of learning wholness is understanding that this is who are you and accepting it, find your passions go after them! Wether it be sports, drones, drawing or guitar

So much of what we do is looking at what society deems as acceptable and admirable and hate our self for not meeting it.
A skill we have to attain is to look within and say yes I love me and I'm true to myself and my passions despite being disadvantaged in some areas can still find the good and the love to say yes I deserve what I have I worked for it

 

[shampoo sniffer]

So do I.

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

I'm worse than you.

I'm the biggest loser
I'm the biggest failure
I'm a manly creature
I smell
Everyone wants me dead
No one likes me and everyone hate ( the whole world ).
I never had any friends
I'm an ugly thing
I make people throw up/ puke
No one wants to be around me
People avoid me at all costs

It's been like this since I was Borg with this very ugly creature big foot face of mine.

I make kids scared and cry and run away upon seeing my ugly fact and body and everything about me is so ducking ewwweeee ugly.

I pee and poop myself and I'm the most disgusting and smelly creature.

I can't take this anyone OP I'm so happy that there is someone I can relate to but you are waaaaaay better than me.


Me I'm literally the worst of the worst among every creature and every living species in the whole planet and universe.

 

[gasforme]

I used to like myself then after multiple psychosis episodes over the years I no longer know who I even am

 

[LonelyPrince]

@Dinorun
I know I need to accept myself but it's easier said than done...
I can't meet any of society's expectations, so is my existence of any value?
Thank you for your kind message tho, you took the time to write it and send it and that's a lot.

 

[Deepdense]

Life is about what you can make of yourself rather than what you can't. You don't have to be the best as long as you try your best.

 

[SanagiMezamete]

I can't meet any of society's expectations, so is my existence of any value?

"It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society." If you can't meet society's expectations that doesn't mean you're bad or worthless, it means you're not an efficient slave for the modern economic meatgrinder. It's a cruel and selfish world, most only care about themselves and will shame others who don't play along and conform in lockstep. I'm sorry they make you feel so worthless because you don't fit their expectations. I think everyone is worthy, including you.

 

[LonelyPrince]

"It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society." If you can't meet society's expectations that doesn't mean you're bad or worthless, it means you're not an efficient slave for the modern economic meatgrinder. It's a cruel and selfish world, most only care about themselves and will shame others who don't play along and conform in lockstep. I'm sorry they make you feel so worthless because you don't fit their expectations. I think everyone is worthy, including you.

I will remember these words. Thank you.
They bring me some comfort.

 

[OnnanokoNiNaritai]

I hate myself.
I don't deserve anything good, yet at the same time I feel like I do.
I'm not as capable as others.
I'm not brave.
I'm weak.

Nothing feels real. No one feels real.

Ur still human
And everyone deserves love, afection and great friends and family.
Yes u deserve everything. Dont be a jerk to yourself