Venting I hate myself so deeply

[Capsaicin78]

Everything I touch falls apart. I am not able to "live" in a society. I am too socially retarded for that. Honestly don't know why people have to suffer this much.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I'm sorry you're feeling so much self-loathing… It's a very dark place to be… I'm sure that many of us here share Your sentiments… I have that same feeling… Everything I touch I contaminate…

 

[Hollowman]

Same here, I used to say everything I touch turns to mold.

 

[Capsaicin78]

Same here, I used to say everything I touch turns to mold.

I think I like that saying more than just "falls apart" , because mold is also spreading...just like my mistakes lol

 

[Hollowman]

I isolate a lot so it's not spreading much anymore.ha

 

[Capsaicin78]

I isolate a lot so it's not spreading much anymore.ha

Unfortunately I am not able to isolate myself entirely... If I could then I also would!

 

[deathbecomesus]

Hey man, I felt that. I am so sorry it's come to this. I used to hate myself deeply too, but then I realized... society failed us most out of anyone or anything. People failed us. That's why we've gotten to this point, right? Everyone we needed failed us, whether or not it's their fault. We're fucked up because this world and things that happened in our lives fucked us up. Don't hate yourself for that. We're all thrown into this gross, torturous pit, this rat race that churns us up and spins us out. It's a cesspool, this planet we live on. We're just unfortunate victims of a bigger problem that no one can ever solve.

 

[Capsaicin78]

Hey man, I felt that. I am so sorry it's come to this. I used to hate myself deeply too, but then I realized... society failed us most out of anyone or anything. People failed us. That's why we've gotten to this point, right? Everyone we needed failed us, whether or not it's their fault. We're fucked up because this world and things that happened in our lives fucked us up. Don't hate yourself for that. We're all thrown into this gross, torturous pit, this rat race that churns us up and spins us out. It's a cesspool, this planet we live on. We're just unfortunate victims of a bigger problem that no one can ever solve.

I don't even think about not blaming myself... so kinda refreshing to hear that, thanks . But yeah people try their best to ruin a kind of their own. Humans are just too often garbage beings.

 

[Zegers]

Sometimes I feel so disappointed with all of life that I feel an intense hatred, a hatred that hurts.

Its like, whats the point of all this?

 

[Capsaicin78]

Its like, whats the point of all this?

I am asking myself that all of the time. Why even suffer like this?

 

[depressedmaniac]

Sometimes I feel so disappointed with all of life that I feel an intense hatred, a hatred that hurts.

Its like, whats the point of all this?

I too have reached a point where I wouldnt even wanna fit into this fucked society even if I could. I dont feel much remorse or self loathing anymore.

 

[Zegers]

Most of time I feel apathetic and anxious but dang I don't even remember when I felt good

 

[FuneralCry]

Living really can be so painful. To me it is horrifying that so much suffering exists. I also see no point to it all, and I just want to be gone from this world. I'm sorry that you are in this unbearable situation. I wish you the best.

 

[Zegers]

Living really can be so painful. To me it is horrifying that so much suffering exists. I also see no point to it all, and I just want to be gone from this world. I'm sorry that you are in this unbearable situation. I wish you the best.

I read you over here frequently. Are you thinking about ctb?

 

[czx85]

I been going through the same trouble my whole life. Even yesterday got rejected.

Stop wasting time on people we obviously don't belong to. It would only cause us stress and sense of failure. Video games are a savior to me. Interaction with players are generally relaxing and enjoyable. The relationship feels casual, everyone can get in and out at anytime.

 

[Capsaicin78]

Video games are a savior to me.

Glad to hear they are helping you. Unfortunately for me they stopped working some time ago

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I hate myself and what i am. I'm a useless piece of trash.

 

[Idontmatter]

I can relate. I've hated myself for years and with this latest breakdown I'm having I feel in the way. I'm looking forward to getting out of everyone's way permanently.

 

[FuneralCry]

I read you over here frequently. Are you thinking about ctb?

Yes, it is what is always on my mind, and non existence is all that I want, only I wish that it was easier to actually get there. I am trapped in this world as ctb is so difficult for me. All that I am doing is trying to pass the time each day until I fall asleep. I wish you the best.

 

[Zegers]

I wish that it was easier

I do basically the same, since January the noises in the morning stress me out so I try to sleep and wait until the night when everything is calmer. I would like the exit to be simpler. I hope we can access it at some point.