Venting I hate my survival instinct

[heydude56]

I know there is no happy future for me and I know for sure I will be better off dead but this goddamned survival instinct is the only thing that's keeping me alive

I even have everything I need for ctb right now but keep chickening out and it's very frustrating

I didn't have this much survival instinct the last time I tried to ctb(which unfortunately failed) but now it's very strong for some reason..

 

[unluckysadness]

Mine is very strong too. 1000 reasons to die but this fucking SI keeps me here.

 

[DskDsk]

Same here

 

[SomewhereNew]

I also despise mine too I'm 30 my future is looking VERY bleak I am just prolonging my anguish because of survival instinct