I hate my stupid chimp-brain

[lostundead]

I hate having to feel horny almost every day, despite being severly disabled and having awful genes that create nothing but suffering and misery, which I would never a spread under any circumstance, but I'm unable to make my brain understand that. Also, thanks to our kind overlords who've given people the 'freedom' of having 24/7 access to internet pornography from a young age on, so we can struggle with this annoying addiction for the rest of our lives.

I hate having to feel crippling loneliness all the time because my brain requires constant validation and affection from other people in order to feel like a human being, let alone happy. Despite turning off notifications, I pathetically check my reactions on SS regularly because stupid internet points are the only type of validation I can get.

I hate feeling overly anxious in mildly stressful situations because my brain was programmed into reacting this way during my childhood because my parents were colossal failures and didnt teach me how to properly behave in those situations.

Being part of the super-monkey species (aka. human), we are also 'blessed' with the apollonic 'gifts' of inisght and foresight, therefore we are suffering not only for the present moment but for the future aswell and for the fact that we are able to consciously experience this shitshow; atleast if you're a real monley you don't have to deal with that.In terms of power, this really was the greatest gift nature could have given us, as it got us to the top of the food chain pretty quickly. On the other hand it also made us susceptible to the greatest amounts of suffering that exist in nature. I hope humans will be able to break out of this in-between state soon.

 

[FuneralCry]

I see consciousness as being torture. It really is painful being alive as there is no escape from ourselves and our thoughts. For me one of the worst things is the survival instinct as even know I want to die, my brain is wired to survive.

 

[soverytired]

I relate to you a bit, i don't use pornography anymore because it's just too much stimulation for a human (it turned out that after 2 weeks or so i just didnt need it to jerk off). Tbh we've been really fucked for at least 60 years because of mass media and modern consumerism (and probably like 100 other things). I'm not even talking about the societal impact, it just seems like on individual level we've changed into something very different compared to a person from let's say xix century. The generational differences feel more like stages in evolution rn. Thanks for listening to my ted talk gdhjfdsjhsdasfdjkasdfjkl

 

[OrcWitch]

I don't think it's pathetic for you to get a little rush from the thumbsy upsy notification, we're all susceptible to that. I think it's only pathetic if you let the potential of upvotes and downvotes change the way you express yourself. That's the main issue with reddit imo.

I agree that human consciousness is like this double edged sword that causes us so much suffering.

 

[motel rooms]

I hope humans will be able to break out of this in-between state soon.

How?

 

[lostundead]

How?

I don't know, I'm just saying we're not the pinnacle of evolution, which is what many still seem to believe.

Why are you asking it like I had something evil in mind?

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

Great read, big agree.

I pathetically check my reactions on SS regularly because stupid internet points are the only type of validation I can get.

Relatable

How?

Impossible, those who fight against monke-nature (DNA) won't breed. Their traits (mostly environmental, perhaps somewhat genetic) won't spread through top-down familial brainwashing, and ofc not through societal/mainstream ones. Which leaves zero ways for this to catch on in a necessarily huge way...? Yeah, idk, lol.

 

[StringPuppet]

I think about stuff like this a lot (though I'm not disabled I'm just a dumb and depressed coomer). Here's a quote from an article about negative utilitarianism that kind of relates to the topic I think:

"There is no more effective tool to motivate organisms to preserve their bloodline than one which elicits genuine value as punishment for failing to do so."

Seems like the only options currently are participate in the biological rat-race or be subjected to constant loneliness. I hope someday technology can allow people to overcome their biological urges. I'm not sure what comes after that but it's gotta be better than this.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

I feel you bro. Try having a stupid duck brain.

 

[lostundead]

I feel you bro. Try having a stupid duck brain.

I admire your consistency in roleplaying as a duck on a suicide forum.

 

[motel rooms]

I hope someday technology can allow people to overcome their biological urges. I'm not sure what comes after that but it's gotta be better than this.

Why so optimistic? Even if people managed to overcome their biological urges, they'd still be cursed with the "gifts" of insight, hindsight & foresight...
What's so wonderful about us super monkes using bioengineering to take control of our evolution? There's no way shit won't go terribly wrong. Not that I give a shit about the future of our species, I sure as shit ain't plannin' on stickin' my gay monke dick in no vaginers & fatherin' no monke brats.

 

[lostundead]

What's so wonderful about us super monkes using bioengineering to take control of our evolution?

Whats the other option? Return to monke?

 

[Enigmatic Sailor]

Embrace crippling alcoholism and benzo dependence (DON'T ACTUALLY F$#@% DO THIS!!). You will no longer feel any sexual desires or pleasures because you'll have permanent (I think) ED. I haven't felt anything in 3 months after my binge episodes.

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

Our primitive monkey brains (as well as the DNA delusion) suck so badly. I feel you, bro.

Having no control over what gets me aroused is something that causes me a great deal of humiliation and shame. Especially when I've been suffering with these involuntary reactions since I was a young child.

I never developed 'normal' sexuality, because my trauma stemming from medical environments has been solidified in my brain somehow and permanently warped my idea of sex. I want so badly to be normal, to no longer be turned on by the same stimuli that cause me great distress and panic in innocuous situations.

This is something I have absolutely no power over, yet people insist that I can control it because it relates to the nebulous concept of "the mind." If the hindbrain region (the primitive neural structure that underpins the most basal of brain functions) was severed, we'd just keel over instantly. We can't control the complex physiological responses dictated by the hindbrain, like respiration, heart rate, smooth muscle contraction, etc.

It is terrifying to admit that we don't hold the reigns, and that biology dictates nearly everything for us. Determinism doesn't really spark joy. We need to have a certain degree of nativity and ignorance to thrive in the artificial playpen that is the modern world, as our current environment has become completely distinct from the conditions our ancestors occupied.

When you are presented with a litany of harsh truths, it is utterly crippling. There are many of us who desire love and human connection, who need these relationships to feel happy, and will forever be seen as weak and code pendent by those who are more solitary in nature. Different people have different needs due to their genes and environment (No, not the based guy on this forum)

This fact will never be acknowledged becaude it is easier to pretend we have some semblance of control, being the top of the food chain and all. In today's world, that is pretty much a moot point, because our environment would be unfathomable to primitive humans.

 

[motel rooms]

Whats the other option? Return to monke?

Why not? I do it by popping Xanax & being addicted to sex & masturbation. I find numbing my brain & ultimately destroying it much more preferable to "perfecting" it...

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

Different people have different needs due to their genes and environment (No, not the based guy on this forum)

Based on what?

 

[Enigmatic Sailor]

Based on what?

Deez nutz! GOTTEM!

 

[lostundead]

Why not? I do it by popping Xanax & being addicted to sex & masturbation. I find numbing my brain & ultimately destroying it much more preferable to "perfecting" it...

Isn't this exactly what they did in 1920s Berlin before that austrian painter took over?

 

[motel rooms]

Isn't this exactly what they did in 1920s Berlin before that austrian painter took over?

Well, you're free to abstain from the pleasures of the flesh, shave your head, take deep breaths, meditate & wait for the techno-overlords to liberate you by uploading your consciousness to the Cloud (cuz they totally give a shit about us peasants & our suffering). I, on the other hand, plan on sticking with my benzos & only shaving my balls so other horny apes can suck on them before I screw 'em until the happy day I keel over.

As for the 1920s:

I used to have a girlfriend
Known as Elsie
With whom I shared
Four sordid rooms in Chelsea
She wasn't what you'd call
A blushing flower
As a matter of fact
She rented by the hour

The day she died the neighbors
Came to snicker
"Well, that's what comes
From too much pills and liquor"
But when I saw her laid out like a queen
She was the happiest corpse
I'd ever seen

I think of Elsie to this very day
I remember how she'd turn to me and say
"What good is sitting all alone in your room?
Come hear the music play
Life is a cabaret, old chum
Come to the cabaret!"

 

[Shadowplay]

I admire your consistency in roleplaying as a duck on a suicide forum.

Quality kek.

 

[lostundead]

Well, you're free to abstain from the pleasures of the flesh, shave your head, take deep breaths, meditate & wait for the techno-overlords to liberate you by uploading your consciousness to the Cloud (cuz they totally give a shit about us peasants & our suffering). I, on the other hand, plan on sticking with my benzos & only shaving my balls so other horny apes can suck on them before I screw 'em until the happy day I keel over.

As for the 1920s:

I used to have a girlfriend
Known as Elsie
With whom I shared
Four sordid rooms in Chelsea
She wasn't what you'd call
A blushing flower
As a matter of fact
She rented by the hour

The day she died the neighbors
Came to snicker
"Well, that's what comes
From too much pills and liquor"
But when I saw her laid out like a queen
She was the happiest corpse
I'd ever seen

I think of Elsie to this very day
I remember how she'd turn to me and say
"What good is sitting all alone in your room?
Come hear the music play
Life is a cabaret, old chum
Come to the cabaret!"

You sound like someone who has never opened their third eye, taken a journey through the depths of the astral realm and manifested their anime waifu into reality.

For real though, you're missing my point: Hitler never would've gotten to power if people didn't withdraw from the real world and ignored politics in order to endulge in the pleasures of venus and bacchus.

 

[motel rooms]

You sound like someone who has never opened their third eye, taken a journey through the depths of the astral realm and manifested their anime waifu into reality.

Yup, my third eye is totally blind.

Smiling in the pictures you would take
Doing crystal meth will lift you up until you break
It won't stop, I won't come down
I keep stock with a tick-tock rhythm, a bump for the drop
And then I bumped up, I took the hit that I was given
Then I bumped again, then I bumped again

For real though, you're missing my point: Hitler never would've gotten to power if people didn't withdraw from the real world and ignored politics in order to endulge in the pleasures of venus and bacchus.

Ya think the working class & the lower middle class aka the majority of the German population were able to indulge in escapism & decadent pleasures? Hitler wouldn't have come to power if the German industrialists hadn't backed him because they were scared shitless of the rising Left.

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

For real though, you're missing my point: Hitler never would've gotten to power if people didn't withdraw from the real world and ignored politics in order to endulge in the pleasures of venus and bacchus.

So, if all of the nazis ignored politics and coomed all day then Hitler would have become the super-mega-fuhrer and won ww2 (and 3 and 4)? Wouldn't it be better for them to coom, then?

Ya think the working class & the lower middle class aka the majority of the German population were able to indulge in escapism & decadent pleasures?

Well, they had children, innit?

Come to the cabaret!"

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

You sound like someone who has never opened their third eye, taken a journey through the depths of the astral realm and manifested their anime waifu into reality.

For real though, you're missing my point: Hitler never would've gotten to power if people didn't withdraw from the real world and ignored politics in order to endulge in the pleasures of venus and bacchus.

real never before seen footage of my third eye opening

https://i.kym-cdn.com/photos/images/original/000/911/268/983.jpg