
Sleeper System
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- May 5, 2022
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I keep trying to convince myself that everything is ok with me.
I'm so lonely and lost in this world that Its hard to even admit it to myself.
None of this matters. This struggle to navigate and survive in these modern
times feels so hollow and unfullfilling. I don't want to live like this anymore. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up.
I am a weak and worthless male that should have been aborted.
I am not strong and fearless or admirable.
There is no place for me here. Never was.
No women or man or society needed to tell me this. I saw it in myself.
I see it in myself. The lack or desire to do anything but be a waste of space.
No one will feel sorry for you. No one should. You should just be able to give up and die in peace. The lack of freedom to do so respectably is the worst kind of feeling. To be depressed and cowardly and powerless to top it off.
I don't know what to do anymore. This is the kind of person I am.
I can't keep going on like this. I think I'm one bad day away from ending it.
I talk about suicide a lot and today it feels more real than ever.
I'm so lonely and lost in this world that Its hard to even admit it to myself.
None of this matters. This struggle to navigate and survive in these modern
times feels so hollow and unfullfilling. I don't want to live like this anymore. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up.
I am a weak and worthless male that should have been aborted.
I am not strong and fearless or admirable.
There is no place for me here. Never was.
No women or man or society needed to tell me this. I saw it in myself.
I see it in myself. The lack or desire to do anything but be a waste of space.
No one will feel sorry for you. No one should. You should just be able to give up and die in peace. The lack of freedom to do so respectably is the worst kind of feeling. To be depressed and cowardly and powerless to top it off.
I don't know what to do anymore. This is the kind of person I am.
I can't keep going on like this. I think I'm one bad day away from ending it.
I talk about suicide a lot and today it feels more real than ever.