yornis._pppp
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- Mar 22, 2026
- 4
My family sucks. They are the cruelest people ever. Even though they give me food, show kindness, I will always resent.
In my country, parents are seen as gods. They are "always" right. And I hated that. And I hated the thought of starting a family myself. My biological father is a cruel alcoholic that beats his wife, and my mom is a depressive miserable woman that almost killed her son. As the oldest sibling, and daughter, I hated having almost no freedom, especially being a woman and a minority in my country.
Everyday, my life is so miserable with them. I constantly hear my mother comparing me to my sister, how I am much much better than her. Even though I want things to he equal, thats how cruel this reality is. I developed self harm and porn addiction, making relationships secretive, and I always have to go through everyday with a smile etched on my face, as if I dont have struggles.
I tried to treat myself. My mother takes me to the psychiatrist, but thats never enough. Its too late, and I dont even feel free with my psychiatrist.
I am an adult, and I have no privacy too. I dont know life skills, I can drive, but my mom checks my diaries, stalks my socials if she had the chance, and etc. Theres so much reasons why I want to kill myself and it outweights the reason I want to live.
In my country, parents are seen as gods. They are "always" right. And I hated that. And I hated the thought of starting a family myself. My biological father is a cruel alcoholic that beats his wife, and my mom is a depressive miserable woman that almost killed her son. As the oldest sibling, and daughter, I hated having almost no freedom, especially being a woman and a minority in my country.
Everyday, my life is so miserable with them. I constantly hear my mother comparing me to my sister, how I am much much better than her. Even though I want things to he equal, thats how cruel this reality is. I developed self harm and porn addiction, making relationships secretive, and I always have to go through everyday with a smile etched on my face, as if I dont have struggles.
I tried to treat myself. My mother takes me to the psychiatrist, but thats never enough. Its too late, and I dont even feel free with my psychiatrist.
I am an adult, and I have no privacy too. I dont know life skills, I can drive, but my mom checks my diaries, stalks my socials if she had the chance, and etc. Theres so much reasons why I want to kill myself and it outweights the reason I want to live.
