I hate having attachment to people

[Final Escape]

This makes it hard to ctb lol! This might be the real reason it's hard. Maybe if I quit sex and I'll be totally lonely and then I would be able? It's the good memories that make it tough to leave. I'm too attached to life yet my life really is a disaster and it sucks a lot of the time.

 

[Empty Smile]

I'm sorry I'm so irresistible. I just can't help it! :)

 

[Alchemist]

I'm sorry you feel that way. sadly attachment seems to be part of the human condition, specially when we are lonely. You are an amazing woman and you don't deserve to be alone. I'm sure you can find someone who would not leave you.

 

[Pistolero114]

You and me both

 

[Sweet emotion]

This makes it hard to ctb lol! This might be the real reason it's hard. Maybe if I quit sex and I'll be totally lonely and then I would be able? It's the good memories that make it tough to leave. I'm too attached to life yet my life really is a disaster and it sucks a lot of the time.

When you say your life sucks a lot of the time, what exactly is it that you hate about it enough to kill yourself?

 

[Final Escape]

When you say your life sucks a lot of the time, what exactly is it that you hate about it enough to kill yourself?

Untreated borderline personality disorder, complex ptsd. Both are treatable but I may not be able to stick with therapy due to the constant shifts in self, moods, emotional flashbacks. I think I would have to be a resident somewhere for like 6 to 8 months which I can't afford.

 

[Rachel74]

This is the reason I can't CTB right now x

 

[Sweet emotion]

Untreated borderline personality disorder, complex ptsd. Both are treatable but I may not be able to stick with therapy due to the constant shifts in self, moods, emotional flashbacks. I think I would have to be a resident somewhere for like 6 to 8 months which I can't afford.

You'd haVE for force yourself to stick to it if you want a change in your life.