Venting I got screwed

[MISERYinlife]

so here is my story back in april i had everything set up was minutes away from ending it and somehow still not sure why they even looked for me but i was found in my remote location couldn't believe it had a rope and gun was going to do both just to make sure i didn't fail then my daughter fiance brother and dad all showed up so i still had the option for the gun held them off for 4 hours and let them talk me out of it only to continue my miserable life was in a mental hospital for a week was a joke to me as i am still suffering with anxiety and depression anyway they took all my guns and wont give them back and i don't even have the energy to go get another one i am messed up bad so went to hang myself partial and chickened out for some dumb reason so i guess i just need to get over the fear now and do it where i can't chicken out and make sure feet is off the ground i hope it works and it's fast as i know gun with the hanging and i would have been free already i told them all they are selfish for making me hold on but they just think i am messed up in the head...man i wish i had my guns back but anyways i will and am going to do it i have no choice i just suffer and lay in bed all the time what a screwed up world and mental health sucks big time i'm over it can't worry about hurting them any longer i am suffering bad and i told them that....please let the hanging be an easy and painless way..

 

[First loss]

Fuck lad, you clearly are in lot of pain.

I'd recommend to you that you reassess your situation. Be 100% sure that you want to do it and that there is no other way.
If you decide for it, read a lot about hanging and decide between partial and full. If done properly it can me quick and easy.

Best of luck.

 

[GeorgeJL]

Sorry for your suffering. You sound like one of the worser cases here. What have you tried to get better with so far?

 

[MISERYinlife]

Fuck lad, you clearly are in lot of pain.

I'd recommend to you that you reassess your situation. Be 100% sure that you want to do it and that there is no other way.
If you decide for it, read a lot about hanging and decide between partial and full. If done properly it can me quick and easy.

Best of luck.

thank you and yes my life has been like this for sometime i read everything i can and want to only way to escape this crap i just hope it is fast they screwed me by taking my guns

Sorry for your suffering. You sound like one of the worser cases here. What have you tried to get better with so far?

ah been on xanax and zoloft got tolerant to the xanax to where they quit working zoloft does nothing and doctors don't wanna give benzos anymore which was the only thing that worked for me and my back i have chronic pain with it also just sick of living like this

 

[dandan]

So sorry, what can I say?

I'm attempting to give LIFE a chance, I need to make up my own way of living life

Life screw me over because I didnt did what was necessary....

now its time to do whats necessary to improve my life... will I do it?

What are you going to do????


I have N, just in case.....

 

[First loss]

thank you and yes my life has been like this for sometime i read everything i can and want to only way to escape this crap i just hope it is fast they screwed me by taking my guns

It's only natural that they would take away things you can hurt yourself with from you. You can't really blame them. Obviously, they care about you.
In your post it doesn't say the reason you want to ctb. Would you be kind enough to tell me the reason?

 

[MISERYinlife]

It's only natural that they would take away things you can hurt yourself with from you. You can't really blame them. Obviously, they care about you.
In your post it doesn't say the reason you want to ctb. Would you be kind enough to tell me the reason?

I have had anxieties for over 20 years ruined my life don't get better also chronic back pain keeps me from any enjoyment

 

[First loss]

I have had anxieties for over 20 years ruined my life don't get better also chronic back pain keeps me from any enjoyment

That really is horrible. I really don't know what's worse. I really don't know anything about back pain so you should see a professional. You can totally try and do something about anxiety.

Suicide is a MAJOR decision and should not be taken lightly. Consider all your options. Maybe find new hobbies that you can do even with back pain.

I really hope you sort everything out as you wish and your decision works out for you.
Best of luck.

 

[MISERYinlife]

That really is horrible. I really don't know what's worse. I really don't know anything about back pain so you should see a professional. You can totally try and do something about anxiety.

Suicide is a MAJOR decision and should not be taken lightly. Consider all your options. Maybe find new hobbies that you can do even with back pain.

I really hope you sort everything out as you wish and your decision works out for you.
Best of luck.

Ah I been dealing with the anxieties for so long now they have destroyed my life can't travel or anything seen doctors for it and they suck there is no hope antidepressants are a joke in
opinion and I know it's a huge decision but when you have no quality of life it starts looking like the best and only one

 

[First loss]

Ah I been dealing with the anxieties for so long now they have destroyed my life can't travel or anything seen doctors for it and they suck there is no hope antidepressants are a joke in
opinion and I know it's a huge decision but when you have no quality of life it starts looking like the best and only one

I understand.

It's your life and your decision. I'm sure you know what's best for you and that you will make a wise choice.

 

[M]

Chronic back pain is something that I live with and it's horrible. I wouldn't wish it on anyone.

 

[PatKat]

Same here my back does not like me, my neck also never feels good.