Cashewmilk
Specialist
- Mar 10, 2020
- 352
I finally received it. But I'm still not sure if I can go through with this. I can handle the horrible gastric symptoms I guess but I'll be counting the minutes. I know I will suffer a lot even if I get my hands on the other things. I have IBS and I frequently suffer from severe stomach aches, unbearably painful ones, with extremely violent vomiting and pain.
This isn't related to getting SN but I had a shitty experience today, I woke up with a stomach ache and I tried everything to stop it, but I had to throw up and it's the painful kind of vomiting, not like morning sickness or bulimia. Ugh. I was thinking about SN while I was suffering, and I couldn't even think about it. It made me feel worse. After it was all over, I thought about it again and I think I can probably handle the pain. It takes a lot of breathing and concentration. I also took my Buscopan which causes rapid heartbeat, and my sister came and attacked me accusing me of how I got sick (my family regularly does it to me, apparently you're not allowed to be sick unless you're earning money according to them). Then after she left I had a strong panic attack, my heart was beating super fast so heavily while my temperature went up, and it actually felt good. It made me feel better because it distracted me from the pain for a bit. That's probably what they mean when they speak of trachardyia...Then I went to go vomit.
So I might be able to handle SN when that day comes... hopefully. I'd feel a lot better if I can get the other things to help with the symptoms.
This isn't related to getting SN but I had a shitty experience today, I woke up with a stomach ache and I tried everything to stop it, but I had to throw up and it's the painful kind of vomiting, not like morning sickness or bulimia. Ugh. I was thinking about SN while I was suffering, and I couldn't even think about it. It made me feel worse. After it was all over, I thought about it again and I think I can probably handle the pain. It takes a lot of breathing and concentration. I also took my Buscopan which causes rapid heartbeat, and my sister came and attacked me accusing me of how I got sick (my family regularly does it to me, apparently you're not allowed to be sick unless you're earning money according to them). Then after she left I had a strong panic attack, my heart was beating super fast so heavily while my temperature went up, and it actually felt good. It made me feel better because it distracted me from the pain for a bit. That's probably what they mean when they speak of trachardyia...Then I went to go vomit.
So I might be able to handle SN when that day comes... hopefully. I'd feel a lot better if I can get the other things to help with the symptoms.
