Venting I got dumped this morning.

[Backwoodsqueer]

After getting dumped, on Valentine's day, by the only person who I've ever felt like truly loved and understood me- I'm done. A future with him was what kept me pushing on, as unrealistic as it was.

I'm honestly unsure of how long I can keep holding on. I'm starting to feel like I don't have much or many reasons any more.

My SN is here. I have plenty of antiemetics. If my best friend didn't rely on me for affordibly housing herself and her child, I'd be gone by now.

I'm not sure when or what my next move is.

 

[Dead beat dad]

After getting dumped, on Valentine's day, by the only person who I've ever felt like truly loved and understood me- I'm done. A future with him was what kept me pushing on, as unrealistic as it was.

I'm honestly unsure of how long I can keep holding on. I'm starting to feel like I don't have much or many reasons any more.

My SN is here. I have plenty of antiemetics. If my best friend didn't rely on me for affordibly housing herself and her child, I'd be gone by now.

I'm not sure when or what my next move is.

Hi friend, getting dumped is harsh. Getting dumped on VD is also harsh, I'm sorry for your pain and the difficulty you're having.
You say there was only one that you felt could understand you? Have you tried any professional help (or even unprofessional for that matter). There must be more going on in the background to be impacting on you state of mind to make you feel this way, not just the massive blow you felt today, like underlying causes.
Here for you if you want to vent your spleen friend.
DBD

 

[Delia]

If you're getting held back by your friends situation i'd advise to put that plan on hold. After all there's no rush and there's a priority in your mind rn.
Also, dumped at valentine's day squad
high five my man (though it was last year but hey I survived)

 

[Backwoodsqueer]

Hi friend, getting dumped is harsh. Getting dumped on VD is also harsh, I'm sorry for your pain and the difficulty you're having.
You say there was only one that you felt could understand you? Have you tried any professional help (or even unprofessional for that matter). There must be more going on in the background to be impacting on you state of mind to make you feel this way, not just the massive blow you felt today, like underlying causes.
Here for you if you want to vent your spleen friend.
DBD

There's definitely been more than this. Just feels like this is the last straw, if that makes sense. I've been going to weekly counseling for a while now and it hasn't seemed to improve my mental state any.

If you're getting held back by your friends situation i'd advise to put that plan on hold. After all there's no rush and there's a priority in your mind rn.
Also, dumped at valentine's day squad
high five my man (though it was last year but hey I survived)

I'm definitely holding on for her sake. I just don't know how long it's fair for me to force myself to suffer in my mental state for the wellness of someone else.

 

[Soul]

@Backwoodsqueer, I'm sorry you're suffering. Does talking about it with your friend help at all? Will talking with us help? People on this forum are very good listeners.

Please don't do anything irrevocable now — you're in fresh bad pain from the end of your relationship and that's not a good state for making decisions.

What would you like to happen now — in life, I mean, not suicide? Please be careful and good to yourself. x

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Ah to get dumped on Valentines's Day, I can see how that would be the icing on the cake. I think you are holding on for the right reasons though. The heartache is horrible, I always resorted to beer and country music. If you can hold on and see how you feel, the heartache does usually ease off after awhile.

 

[Backwoodsqueer]

@Backwoodsqueer, I'm sorry you're suffering. Does talking about it with your friend help at all? Will talking with us help? People on this forum are very good listeners.

Please don't do anything irrevocable now — you're in fresh bad pain from the end of your relationship and that's not a good state for making decisions.

What would you like to happen now — in life, I mean, not suicide? Please be careful and good to yourself. x

I'm honestly not sure. I can't talk to her about much as she's pretty absorbed in her own life. When I told her this morning that we broke up, her response was that she didn't even know we still talked.

I definitely don't plan on making any immediate decisions. I just want to feel happy again.

 

[Soul]

I'm honestly not sure. I can't talk to her about much as she's pretty absorbed in her own life. When I told her this morning that we broke up, her response was that she didn't even know we still talked.

I definitely don't plan on making any immediate decisions. I just want to feel happy again.

Well, you can talk with people here.

It sounds like the break-up had been on the horizon for awhile. Was it a difficult relationship?

I want you to be happy again too. You're a wonderful person providing shelter for your friend and her baby, and you deserve similar caring largesse from the world. (((Hugs)))

 

[hatelife]

After getting dumped, on Valentine's day, by the only person who I've ever felt like truly loved and understood me- I'm done. A future with him was what kept me pushing on, as unrealistic as it was.

I'm honestly unsure of how long I can keep holding on. I'm starting to feel like I don't have much or many reasons any more.

My SN is here. I have plenty of antiemetics. If my best friend didn't rely on me for affordibly housing herself and her child, I'd be gone by now.

I'm not sure when or what my next move is.

me too, but we were never in a real relationship but still it hurts, it hurts more because God told me to contact him in the first place that he was the one for me and the one who would truly love me for me even if im ugly or pretty u know what I mean, true love, I feel like God tricked me and dont get why he had to hurt me like this and trick me like this, the guy is in love with another girl and it make me feel like I had hallucinated all of this all over again, it was also the one thing that was keeping me going these past years but now I dont even have that anymore, will never open up again to another person like that ever again, I dont believe love exist anymore and dont care actually, life has also been cruel to me, some people in the few years time over a decade have abused me and also bullied me, I think thats why I have mental illness because I was abused in childhood and bullied, but I also bullied to be accepted so i get what I deserve im a whore who deserves shit back anyways

 

[Epsilon0]

Few things in life hurt as badly as a broken heart. I am so sorry you are in pain.

 

[Backwoodsqueer]

Well, you can talk with people here.

It sounds like the break-up had been on the horizon for awhile. Was it a difficult relationship?

I want you to be happy again too. You're a wonderful person providing shelter for your friend and her baby, and you deserve similar caring largesse from the world. (((Hugs)))

I wouldn't exactly say it was difficult, but it had its definitely had it's hurdles. I honestly felt like he's the only person who has truly loved me and cared for me, though. No one has looked at me or held me the way he did. And I'll never get to experience that again.

I just do my best to take care of people. I want others to be happy, even if I can't accomplish that for myself.