I give up on living. I am dying this year

[Livingvsdying25]

I give up. I can't lie even to myself anymore about how I feel.

I don't believe in mental health support anymore. I don't have any faith or hope in a better. I don't think I can survive long enough ro even maybe hope to find help.

I don't even kno what support or help I want or what it would look like anymore.

All these I dunno's just make life so hard for me and makes it impossible to even try accessing support.

Honestly? Aside from the usual/past bullshit I can't really say / pinpoint why im suicidal or why it even makes sense to give up now... bc it doesn't really tbh.

I suck for it and I know I dont deserve help when I don't even kno anything anymore.

It's been about a month maybe even 2. I'm not in hella crisis anymore but, not particularly doing well either.

It doesn't matter though bc by the end of this year or early next year (latest) I am going to figure it out and I am going to kill myself.

My life is a p. insignificant thing amd so shall my death.


These days I'm just coming to terms with how much I hate life, how aĺone I am and how it's a long coming multifaceted issue...

Coming to the terms with the fact that things will just get worse until I'm dead bc I have already given up....

In my last days just tryna live it out so I can cohesively orcastrate a suicide plan.



This time is it. No more turning back to attempt recovery. Things are probably the best they've been and I don't even kno why I want to die for sure this time but it's finally it...


The coming months will be a crushing level of isolation. I won't be in contact with anyone anymore in any area of my life.
Aside from the posts here... not much interaction with anyone anymore. Im sure the rational/need to express myself (hence posting) will dwindle too. It already is.


My life is done and im cutting it short at a good place/point but I can't see myself living on anymore.

So even if I dunno why for death I also dunno why for life either so, jus gonna end it...

My life doesn't mean much to anyone and not that much to myself. My death shall be the same. Idgaf about others though. MY MYSELF AND I, we're tired of living.

I dunno guess I just kno I'm being a fail to myself bc I am giving up now but yeahh.. no more life for me.

If anything vc of how horribly isolating and confusing it is, i wish death could be a quick process. I don't wanna through all the pain of it but, that's not a deterrent anymore.

 

[heretogethelp]

I give up. I can't lie even to myself anymore about how I feel.

I don't believe in mental health support anymore. I don't have any faith or hope in a better. I don't think I can survive long enough ro even maybe hope to find help.

I don't even kno what support or help I want or what it would look like anymore.

All these I dunno's just make life so hard for me and makes it impossible to even try accessing support.

Honestly? Aside from the usual/past bullshit I can't really say / pinpoint why im suicidal or why it even makes sense to give up now... bc it doesn't really tbh.

I suck for it and I know I dont deserve help when I don't even kno anything anymore.

It's been about a month maybe even 2. I'm not in hella crisis anymore but, not particularly doing well either.

It doesn't matter though bc by the end of this year or early next year (latest) I am going to figure it out and I am going to kill myself.

My life is a p. insignificant thing amd so shall my death.


These days I'm just coming to terms with how much I hate life, how aĺone I am and how it's a long coming multifaceted issue...

Coming to the terms with the fact that things will just get worse until I'm dead bc I have already given up....

In my last days just tryna live it out so I can cohesively orcastrate a suicide plan.



This time is it. No more turning back to attempt recovery. Things are probably the best they've been and I don't even kno why I want to die for sure this time but it's finally it...


The coming months will be a crushing level of isolation. I won't be in contact with anyone anymore in any area of my life.
Aside from the posts here... not much interaction with anyone anymore. Im sure the rational/need to express myself (hence posting) will dwindle too. It already is.


My life is done and im cutting it short at a good place/point but I can't see myself living on anymore.

So even if I dunno why for death I also dunno why for life either so, jus gonna end it...

My life doesn't mean much to anyone and not that much to myself. My death shall be the same. Idgaf about others though. MY MYSELF AND I, we're tired of living.

I dunno guess I just kno I'm being a fail to myself bc I am giving up now but yeahh.. no more life for me.

If anything vc of how horribly isolating and confusing it is, i wish death could be a quick process. I don't wanna through all the pain of it but, that's not a deterrent anymore.

I don't want to live, I'm severely depressed and I cope by oversleeping and distracting myself with TV shows/movies. Part of me wants to overdose on SN, but in reality I will probably chicken out as I'm scared of the side effects. Life sucks. That's not news, but it's the way I feel :(

 

[HelloHell]

I give up. I can't lie even to myself anymore about how I feel.

I don't believe in mental health support anymore. I don't have any faith or hope in a better. I don't think I can survive long enough ro even maybe hope to find help.

I don't even kno what support or help I want or what it would look like anymore.

All these I dunno's just make life so hard for me and makes it impossible to even try accessing support.

Honestly? Aside from the usual/past bullshit I can't really say / pinpoint why im suicidal or why it even makes sense to give up now... bc it doesn't really tbh.

I suck for it and I know I dont deserve help when I don't even kno anything anymore.

It's been about a month maybe even 2. I'm not in hella crisis anymore but, not particularly doing well either.

It doesn't matter though bc by the end of this year or early next year (latest) I am going to figure it out and I am going to kill myself.

My life is a p. insignificant thing amd so shall my death.


These days I'm just coming to terms with how much I hate life, how aĺone I am and how it's a long coming multifaceted issue...

Coming to the terms with the fact that things will just get worse until I'm dead bc I have already given up....

In my last days just tryna live it out so I can cohesively orcastrate a suicide plan.



This time is it. No more turning back to attempt recovery. Things are probably the best they've been and I don't even kno why I want to die for sure this time but it's finally it...


The coming months will be a crushing level of isolation. I won't be in contact with anyone anymore in any area of my life.
Aside from the posts here... not much interaction with anyone anymore. Im sure the rational/need to express myself (hence posting) will dwindle too. It already is.


My life is done and im cutting it short at a good place/point but I can't see myself living on anymore.

So even if I dunno why for death I also dunno why for life either so, jus gonna end it...

My life doesn't mean much to anyone and not that much to myself. My death shall be the same. Idgaf about others though. MY MYSELF AND I, we're tired of living.

I dunno guess I just kno I'm being a fail to myself bc I am giving up now but yeahh.. no more life for me.

If anything vc of how horribly isolating and confusing it is, i wish death could be a quick process. I don't wanna through all the pain of it but, that's not a deterrent anymore.

I'm in the same situation as you!! I dont want to deal with the so-called "mental health support" anymore, no more contact with people irl. I dont know what the exact reason that makes me want to die is, but i've had enough of life

 

[Livingvsdying25]

I don't want to live, I'm severely depressed and I cope by oversleeping and distracting myself with TV shows/movies. Part of me wants to overdose on SN, but in reality I will probably chicken out as I'm scared of the side effects. Life sucks. That's not news, but it's the way I feel :(

Yeahh that's how I'm coping as well mostly just distracting. Don't have SN or a choosen method but I am so almoat hesitant to even plan bc I feel like I'll chicken out regardless.

I don't wanna do this half living thing anymore and I can't seem to live so :/

 

[FuneralCry]

Yeah, I know how you feel. This life can be very exhausting. For me death is the solution to all my problems and I love the idea of not existing. No one should have to suffer and I wish we could have an peaceful exit if we wanted one.

 

[eternalmelancholy]

Whatever you decide on don't feel too bad if you don't meet some arbitrary deadline you set for yourself. If killing yourself was easy none of us would be here right now.

 

[NormaJeane]

I have also given up on living. The problem is to find a method which both is peaceful and reliable but the most important thing is that the method does not fail.

 

[WornOutLife]

I'm sorry you're feeling like this, my friend.

I dunno if I'll ctb this year but I will definitely kill myself before my 40s! (less than 7 years left!!)