I give up on life

[lonerclown666]

I said i will CTB for 2022 but i changed my mind i truly wanted to die but i will choose the natural option i dont have any hope in life or future i know i will live depressed for the rest of my life i know i will live unloved people suck for now i will live only for my hobbies i know i always be a loser I will live the rest of this sad existence alone goodbye

 

[ClownMe]

Dont be ashamed, it's no easy feat to commit suicide or attempt suicide for that matter. If you're leaving SS for good then I hope you have the best life you possibly can in this cruel world, you will be missed.

 

[Painless_end]

Don't be hard on yourself. Suicide is very difficult but living life as we all know is much harder.

I won't be the person who says "be proud of yourself for choosing to live" but atleast if you have decided to live don't be hard on yourself.

Hopefully, if you have no health issues and some tendency towards being positive and hopeful then maybe you'll end up finding meaning and contentment in life till you pass away from old age.

 

[timf]

A lot of us measure up as "losers" with other people's yardsticks or in other people's games. Life is more what we can make of it rather than what it makes of us. You mentioned hobbies. It sounds like there is a part of your world that is rewarding. Is that a part you can build on?

 

[Fk_life]

I'm on the same boat. I got nowhere to go to life except for college (since my mom is making me go, I fucking hate it ). You're lucky you have a hobby at least, wish I could have a hobby so I could have a purpose to live and not stuck in a cycle of hatred.

people suck i know

 

[FuneralCry]

Living is very painful. It is such a dreadful feeling knowing you have a miserable future ahead. I'm sorry you are in this situation, at least you have hobbies to focus on. I wish you the best.

 

[motel rooms]

Life is more what we can make of it rather than what it makes of us.

That's highly debatable & possibly doesn't even mean anything, but whatever. Good luck, OP.

 

[ven]

I said i will CTB for 2022 but i changed my mind i truly wanted to die but i will choose the natural option i dont have any hope in life or future i know i will live depressed for the rest of my life i know i will live unloved people suck for now i will live only for my hobbies i know i always be a loser I will live the rest of this sad existence alone goodbye

In the same boat myself, I doubt I'll off myself, but I don't believe my quality of life will improve beyond misery.

 

[lonerclown666]

im back i think about ctb everyday i try to forget and start a new life but the pain is always in me

 

[stellabelle]

im back i think about ctb everyday i try to forget and start a new life but the pain is always in me

Kind of how I "feel."
Every day I tried to move forward, they shoved me back.
They kept enabling thieves, rapists, and liars.
Those people need to rot.
"But please"
"Can you please stop? I've asked nicely. I've begged. I've pushed. I've pleaded."
(Just ignore her.)
Oh, until I become an assailant, and in that case, it's my fault.

 

[PTSDPigeon]

I said i will CTB for 2022 but i changed my mind i truly wanted to die but i will choose the natural option i dont have any hope in life or future i know i will live depressed for the rest of my life i know i will live unloved people suck for now i will live only for my hobbies i know i always be a loser I will live the rest of this sad existence alone goodbye

try hiking. It's better than sitting at home. I'm trying to motivate myself to do that again. I am not a people person, either. It grounds me and makes me feel blood in my veins and breath in my lungs. It is self-help :)