Livingvsdying25
Enlightened
- Dec 8, 2019
- 1,188
I hate it here. I hate that I have to fucking interact or watch someone interac.
I hate that I can't control my environment and I have no controls over the bullshit triggers and such that come up. Like... I'm over it.
Me having to completely re-route my mind just because people can't SHUT THE FUCK UP and LEAVE ME ALONE and LET THIS BE MY HOME .... is fucking bullshit.
Its unfair how someone/people can cause a complete disruption but at the end of the day, Its my job to fix but If i haad to choose I wouldnt be dealing with the shit anymore. Ugh
Also, on a side note Prasozin (high blood pressure medication commonly prescribed to help woth PTSD sleep issues) majes me feel fucking awful. Puts my body in a weird place and really limits like how much I can do. I stopped taking it like a month ago and after taking it for 2days again, it really hit me how much of a hindrance it is.
Its frustrating bc sleep can be difficult. It just seems like a lot of the medical solutions aren't helpful in other areas.
Sighs. Its early. My stomach feel meh. Body feel weird (Prasozin.) Today I don't particularly feel like stewing in shit emotions but I've been tryna deal and im tired.
Maybe this is just part of being able to process triggers but eh... just feel meh
I hate that I can't control my environment and I have no controls over the bullshit triggers and such that come up. Like... I'm over it.
Me having to completely re-route my mind just because people can't SHUT THE FUCK UP and LEAVE ME ALONE and LET THIS BE MY HOME .... is fucking bullshit.
Its unfair how someone/people can cause a complete disruption but at the end of the day, Its my job to fix but If i haad to choose I wouldnt be dealing with the shit anymore. Ugh
Also, on a side note Prasozin (high blood pressure medication commonly prescribed to help woth PTSD sleep issues) majes me feel fucking awful. Puts my body in a weird place and really limits like how much I can do. I stopped taking it like a month ago and after taking it for 2days again, it really hit me how much of a hindrance it is.
Its frustrating bc sleep can be difficult. It just seems like a lot of the medical solutions aren't helpful in other areas.
Sighs. Its early. My stomach feel meh. Body feel weird (Prasozin.) Today I don't particularly feel like stewing in shit emotions but I've been tryna deal and im tired.
Maybe this is just part of being able to process triggers but eh... just feel meh