I found my cat dead yesterday.

[honkpilleddoomer]

My recently turned 1 year old cat kiki fell down from the window of our first floor flat, out there it's all forested area, she hid in the bushes so i couldn't spot her. When i finally spotted her I tried my best to get her back but the society complex barricade prevented me from me reaching her, when I finally got hold of her by pushing the barricade aside(not enough for me to fit in), she gave me a very deep scar on my palm and i impulsively let her go. She then ran away outside the complex, it was all very dark and raining. I tried looking but couldn't find her, this happened on 11th July 2024, we tried looking for her for past few days but couldn't find her anymore. Today my mom saw a bloated dead body of a cat with similar colours like mine floating in large pothole filled with water, just outside our building complex. I confirmed it was her, since then I'm just crying and trying to collect every piece of media I have of her to back it up on the cloud. She was born just around this time last year and i adopted her on 17 September 2023, she was my first pet, even in this short time I've been so attached to her, I wish I could hold her again.

She was only a year old, it was raining heavily for past few days, she never ventured outside , she probably died from getting wet and cold. Just imagining her last moments, shivering in cold, fearful and all alone , I just can't stop crying.

 

[Rosebud0924]

I'm so sorry for your loss. She's a beautiful kitty. I know how much it hurts to lose a pet. One of my cats died a year ago and it's still very painful to think about. Try not to think about her last moments (I know that's easier said than done). Focus on your happy memories and how much you love her. May your sweet baby rest in peace, and may you be comforted as you grieve.

 

[enduringwinter]

I'm sorry, little one.

I never forgot my first cat either.

 

[vadim]

I'm so sorry about your kitty :( It sounds like you tried as best as you could to help her. But I know it hurts so much to lose a beloved pet like that. I miss my cat too.

 

[RejectMetamorphosis]

My recently turned 1 year old cat kiki fell down from the window of our first floor flat, out there it's all forested area, she hid in the bushes so i couldn't spot her. When i finally spotted her I tried my best to get her back but the society complex barricade prevented me from me reaching her, when I finally got hold of her by pushing the barricade aside(not enough for me to fit in), she gave me a very deep scare on my palm and i impulsively let her go. She then ran away outside the complex, it was all very dark and raining. I tried looking but couldn't find her, this happened on 11th July 2024, we tried looking for her for past few days but couldn't find her anymore. Today my mom show a bloated dead body of a cat with similar colours like mine floating in large pothole filled with water, just outside our building complex. I confirmed it was her, since then I'm just crying and trying to collect every piece of media I have of her to back it up on the cloud. She was born just around this time last year and i adopted her on 17 September 2023, she was my first per ever, even in this short time I've been so attached to her, I wish I could hold her again.
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She was only a year old, it was raining heavily for past few days, she never ventured outside , she probably died from getting wet and cold. Just imagining her last moments, shivering in cold, fearful and all alone , I just can't stop crying.

What a cute kitty!!
Im sorry about your loss though :(
I'm positive your cat was the happiest when she was alive as you seem like a great owner. Keep the happy memories in your thoughts!

 

[Rev346]

I'm sorry to hear. Our pets are sometimes more family than our actual family. Plus they always listen to our problems and concerns without judgement. Take time to grieve your loss.

 

[lacrimosa]

I cried when I read this. I am so sorry for your loss. Your kitty looked like a sweetheart! I hope you take some time to grieve and will feel better in the future!

 

[honkpilleddoomer]

This is my first time grieving , I don't want to experience this ever again. I don't want to get attached to anyone, I don't want to create another relationship with a human or an animal anymore if I m just going to lose them.
I could have saved her if I didn't let go of her, I signed her death certificate when I let her go off my grip, I would do anything to go back in time and bring her back .

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I'm sorry for your loss. Cats are too sweet and nice to not deserve passing away in such a brutal way. Take your time to grieve as it isn't easy dealing with this

 

[crownofcerberus]

Often my depression leaves me without tears - though exceptions can be made in a few circumstances, one of which is the loss of a pet. I am saddened to hear about your young ones' short life. Losing something you love dearly makes you want to never want to love again, it hurts too much. You are felt. I hope one day those feelings of sadness over the loss will be replaced by cherished memories. There are many times I look back thinking of my old pet who died ~6 years ago with bittersweet happiness. I haven't been able to fully move on or love another animal the same. They are precious creatures and innocent, don't blame yourself for what happened. Life will constantly throw cruel scenarios at you, but nothing can compare to the loss of someone you love.

This is my first time grieving , I don't want to experience this ever again. I don't want to get attached to anyone, I don't want to create another relationship with a human or an animal anymore if I m just going to lose them.
I could have saved her if I didn't let go of her, I signed her death certificate when I let her go off my grip, I would do anything to go back in time and bring her back .

 

[MHCheese454]

Damn, I'm sorry that happened to you.

 

[UnrulyNightmare]

This is my first time grieving , I don't want to experience this ever again. I don't want to get attached to anyone, I don't want to create another relationship with a human or an animal anymore if I m just going to lose them.
I could have saved her if I didn't let go of her, I signed her death certificate when I let her go off my grip, I would do anything to go back in time and bring her back .

She looks so sweet. I'm so so sorry for your loss!

Please don't blame yourself, life is cruel, and the instinct to let go when being hurt is natural.. You couldn't have know how she would end up either.
You did whatever you could to save her.
Even so I understand thats easy to say for someone else.. I still miss all the pets I lost, and I get the feeling of feeling responsible.
Lots of hugs for the coming time!

 

[honkpilleddoomer]

You did whatever you could to save her.

I did not , if I searched more thoroughly instead of staying at home , I could have found her. The night she disappeared, a pack of stray dogs killed another male stray cat right in front of our house, I looked at her body's picture and I think she could've died atleast 2 days ago. I'm afraid the dogs killed her (if not cold). How terrified she must have been, she never knew what these creatures were. I wish I could die right now just to unite with her .
Also when I see just wouldn't come out despite me snake calling her towards me so I could get her, i got very angry and told her to go away , I will so horrible for saying that to her, because those were some of the last words I said to that poor baby, I want to apologise to her. She looked so helpless then I could I be angry at her.

seem like a great owner

I was a horrible owner. She died because of my negligence and indifference when her life was threatened. I should've died instead of her
She was only a year old, didn't even live 1/15 of her precious life. While I've lived 30% of mine. She didn't deserve to die

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry for your loss.

 

[Dayrain]

@honkpilleddoomer Do you have any further explanation what happened exactly or what was going on in her mind? Why didn't she let herself be taken? Maybe a concussion? Because you said she fell, that sounds harsh, but from 1st floor, I can imagine cats might be able to deal with that.

 

[Hotsackage]

What a cutie, sorry for your loss. I love them to

 

[UnrulyNightmare]

I did not , if I searched more thoroughly instead of staying at home , I could have found her. The night she disappeared, a pack of stray dogs killed another male stray cat right in front of our house, I looked at her body's picture and I think she could've died atleast 2 days ago. I'm afraid the dogs killed her (if not cold). How terrified she must have been, she never knew what these creatures were. I wish I could die right now just to unite with her .
Also when I see just wouldn't come out despite me snake calling her towards me so I could get her, i got very angry and told her to go away , I will so horrible for saying that to her, because those were some of the last words I said to that poor baby, I want to apologise to her. She looked so helpless then I could I be angry at her.

I was a horrible owner. She died because of my negligence and indifference when her life was threatened. I should've died instead of her
She was only a 1 year old, didn't even live 1/15 of her precious life. While I've lived 30% of mine. She didn't deserve to die

I am guessing that anger came from a place of fear, caring and frustration/powerlessness.

It wasn't my intention to cause you even more distress.
I'm truly sorry for your loss, guilt and pain!

 

[honkpilleddoomer]

@honkpilleddoomer Do you have any further explanation what happened exactly or what was going on in her mind? Why didn't she let herself be taken? Maybe a concussion? Because you said she fell, that sounds harsh, but from 1st floor, I can imagine cats might be able to deal with that.

She fell from the window at around 4 pm , then she hid in the bushes, I didn't spot her for a couple of hours when I did I tried to get her back but she hid again. Then I waited a couple of hours for no reason instead of actively going after her, (there's a barricade made up of a wall with steel wire mesh surrounding our housing society ) when it started getting dark I tried to snake call her and our family tried to get her back, my father even climbed the barricade for her but she would come towards him but approached she would run back to the bushes. Once all of my family members left I tried one last time to get her back and she did came out when I called her. I slid my arm by pushing that flexible steel wire mesh aside from the bottom(the part where it connects to the wall) and held her by the neck, once I got her into the society complex itself into the parking. , I was trying to take her back to our house on the first floor, but she scratched my palm really deep with her claws(she was very afraid) then she fell from my hands she hid under a car, when I tried to get her out from there but she started running away, i tried to chase after her but it probably scared her even more she ran outside of the parking through the front gate and then disappeared (there's a row of cars parked in around along with lots of bushes (i hate living in this forested area), I tried looking but couldn't find her.

Why didn't she let herself be taken?

She doesn't like be held, she never ventured out except on one occasion, she was an indoor cat. She only cuddled with me and no one else.

but from 1st floor

She was not hurt from that , but she died due to unknown events during the night of 11th July or 12th July.

 

[Dayrain]

@honkpilleddoomer This sounds like a very unfortunate chain of events in a difficult enviroment. I'm sorry. Maybe she was injured. So she fell out of the window and over both the wire and the wall?

She was not hurt from that

I hope she wasn't but maybe she was and confused because of that.

 

[everythingblack]

So sorry for your loss, can't imagine how crushing this must feel.

 

[honkpilleddoomer]

@honkpilleddoomer This sounds like a very unfortunate chain of events in a difficult enviroment. I'm sorry. Maybe she was injured. So she fell out of the window and over both the wire and the wall?

She fell out of the window, straight outside the barricade she didn't fell on the barricade itself. It started raining that evening and it over night and she was very wet and cold, but there was another danger that night too.(The strays )
After looking for her, I went back to home and fell asleep, in the morning at around 4:50 AM, I was woken up by loud barking outside our first floor flat. When we opened the door , there was a male stray cat (which we sometimes fed ) howling in pain while 2 stray dogs were barking at him. i believe they tried to kill him and chased him all the way to first floor. That stray male cat didn't survive and it died right in front of our house , i considered it a very bad omen and thought something similar must have happened to my cat(that she got killed by dogs too that night ).

 

[Dayrain]

She fell out of the window, straight outside the barricade she didn't fell on the barricade itself.

Ok. Then the barricade must be very close to the wall of the building and the first floor rather high. If it's really high it is possible that even a cat could not manage the height. But as you describe it, she wasn't injured.

howling in pain while 2 stray dogs were barking at him. i believe they tried to kill him and chased him all the way to first floor. That stray male cat didn't survive and it died right in front of our house , i considered it a very bad omen and thought something similar must have happened to my cat(that she got killed by dogs too that night ).

This sounds terrible how agressive the stray dogs are in your area.

 

[honkpilleddoomer]

Then the barricade must be very close to the wall of the building

Yeah it is, that's why it was every hard to get outside as you just hit your head on the ceiling trying to climb it.
But one good thing is that there's another female brown cat that started coming into our house for food just a month ago and she's still alive and well. I hope she never dies, I still have a large bag of dry food left over which I had bought for my cat only a month ago.
I'll feed her that ,but since she's stray she doesn't want to stay in at all. I can't do much other than pray for her safety (although she has survived for 3 years in wild).

 

[Sprite_Geist]

This is absolutely awful. You clearly care about your cat; losing a pet can bring trauma that no one - including you - should have to experience.

 

[SoDone]

I'm really sorry for your loss. I have a cat as well and I can't imagine how you are feeling. I hope she is at peace now.

 

[needsomeoptions]

Im just so sorry. I can't begin to think how much you are hurting. Kiki looks beautiful - and it sounds like the year she had with you was a very special life.