I feel suicide is my only way to deal with being sensitive

[lostangel]

I can't enjoy anything because nearly everything is a trigger. For example I was watching 'Dexter' and a detective pulled a gun on someone and was talking to them and then she shouted ''I said, don't fucking move''. I feel like a baby for saying this but I paused it as it reminded me of verbal abuse from childhood.

I am so god damn sensitive I get offended over everything. I hate it, it makes living so much harder. I feel if I deal with being sensitive I might actually be able to live.

I'm crying more than a newborn about the smallest of things and that most people can't understand why. Hypersensitivity is a curse. I hate being criticized, I hate being talked down to. I am the person you see when people are calling others snowflakes.

Can anyone relate? :(

 

[rabbithole]

same.

hugs to you <3. sorry you're suffering

 

[Superdeterminist]

Yes I definitely can, I'm extremely sensitive and I hate it about myself, because it has fucked me over in basically every facet of life. You have to be insensitive to knocks in life otherwise you don't get anywhere, because knocks are everywhere. I don't know how to make myself more resilient so I just want to ctb and be done with this.

 

[Pravesh]

have you ever been to counselling for your childhood trauma? maybe it can help you overcome the PTSD its left you with. Maybe meds to calm you down. Idk just making suggestions .For me personally none helps but my issue is different than yours so id say try it.

 

[Nymph]

Yeah I'm pretty sensitive too, my parents keep making lame jokes and I always find something to get offended at when they make one or when we are talking about something. My pronouns are not respected by my family, mom is forcing me to wear dresses... my family has shitty views basically.
Just today I was about to buy something and when I was filling the info they wanted me to fill in my title (sir/madam), I'm already pissed.
Just little things make me mad or sad and it's just exhausting to deal with it everyday.
Sometimes I feel like a way of my self harm is also ignoring trigger warnings and watching the content or reading it anyways. Then I'm sad

 

[stygal]

I'm usually not a big cryer when it comes to my own situation or when I'm alone but as soon as my mom accuses me of being lazy or not trying hard enough I get triggered and my waterworks immediately turn on. And that makes things even worse because she gets angry whenever I cry. So it's a never ending cycle. I wish I wasn't that sensitive when it comes to my relatives. Everything else I can cope with (when strangers tell me I suck) but not with my freaking family.

So yeah: I'm too sensitive and I hate it.

 

[foxdie]

I feel this for sure. I can get upset so easily and I hate it.

 

[flower]

i feel this too. it's like everyone has a barrier around their mind to stop things affecting it so much, and mine is missing. i could cry at any given moment. i'm currently off work because it's gotten too hard ♡

 

[Captive of Mind]

This is a struggle that not many people have to this extreme degree and others will judge the hell out of you for it. It isn't a choice for us to have strong emotional reactions to hundreds of things each day. They think we choose not to be able to control our fucked up mind.

"Go talk to a therapist and drug yourself up everyday and you'll be fine." Yeah, what exactly in life am I going to do this for? So I could ruin more relationships, fuck up everything I get into, and be a lonely, sad, crazy person. No thanks, there's not a single thing tying me to this life.

 

[Uzera]

i feel this too. it's like everyone has a barrier around their mind to stop things affecting it so much, and mine is missing. i could cry at any given moment. i'm currently off work because it's gotten too hard ♡

I feel this. Sometimes I feel like the people around me are naturally numb but I just don't have it. I really sometimes feel like im just not cut out for the world or something.

 

[NodusTollens]

Yeah, I feel like this too.

—hugs—

It's awfully overwhelming & it's hard to navigate life in a linear fashion, when triggers/emotions/flashbacks can take us anywhere to any point in time.

 

[Deleted member 22624]

I've developed a thick skin over it all, but it means I'm closed off in most ways.

 

[NodusTollens]

I've developed a thick skin over it all, but it means I'm closed off in most ways.

That's where I'm heading.

 

[Uzera]

Yeah I'm pretty sensitive too, my parents keep making lame jokes and I always find something to get offended at when they make one or when we are talking about something. My pronouns are not respected by my family, mom is forcing me to wear dresses... my family has shitty views basically.
Just today I was about to buy something and when I was filling the info they wanted me to fill in my title (sir/madam), I'm already pissed.
Just little things make me mad or sad and it's just exhausting to deal with it everyday.
Sometimes I feel like a way of my self harm is also ignoring trigger warnings and watching the content or reading it anyways. Then I'm sad

I'm sorry this is happening to you. I've had issues with people over that kind of stuff. Sounds like they probably have shitty thoughtless right wing views if I had to guess? Im gonna be honest you shouldn't feel like you are overly sensitive for getting offended at this stuff. If they are constantly invaliding your gender that is not safe or healthy.
Are they like totally gone in the void? Some people you cant talk to and get through to no matter what but some people will listen to reason. Do they listen at all? I know people can be pretty unwilling to change. I've been thinking lately its odd how people think being NB is a crazy concept but biology doesn't work like that. There are people who are more masc/fem there are people who are intersex and don't really qualify as either gender so I don't get why get being NB is so crazy to people. Have you tried having a more in depth talk with them about how theyre hurting you?

 

[Spitfire]

I can't enjoy anything because nearly everything is a trigger. For example I was watching 'Dexter' and a detective pulled a gun on someone and was talking to them and then she shouted ''I said, don't fucking move''. I feel like a baby for saying this but I paused it as it reminded me of verbal abuse from childhood.

I am so god damn sensitive I get offended over everything. I hate it, it makes living so much harder. I feel if I deal with being sensitive I might actually be able to live.

I'm crying more than a newborn about the smallest of things and that most people can't understand why. Hypersensitivity is a curse. I hate being criticized, I hate being talked down to. I am the person you see when people are calling others snowflakes.

Can anyone relate? :(

It is soo bad 85% of everyone will never know...

 

[Good4Nothing]

I wouldn't call myself a snowflake, but I'm sensitive. I don't get offended, I just get hurt.

 

[Captive of Mind]

I wouldn't call myself a snowflake, but I'm sensitive. I don't get offended, I just get hurt.

I agree, I wouldn't say I'm a snowflake as the term is used now.

There are constantly times where I see an object/image or hear something that brings up emotions from the past and I get stuck in obsessive compulsive loops. I also am overly aware of people being passive aggressive or indirectly having an attitude. And if someone is being fake or dishonest. One of the worst things is when people judge or look down on me.

Interacting with people is simple in some situations but could get extremely complex in others. Even simple things are too much sometimes. Especially for someone who's brain constantly tells them to do the wrong thing. Not much a therapist can do about that one. Like they say, you can't fix stupid..

 

[Uzera]

I feel like snowflake is just a word that has been weaponized by people who hurt people. If you have an emotion about the shit put you through they call you a snowflake. Most reactions are just people getting triggered and they get called snowflakes by people who hate "SJW"s.

 

[L0b5t3r]

I feel your pain homes, it is so incredibly exhausting going through life trying to avoid triggers that are everywhere not to mention the constant pain when avoidance isn't possible.

Its hard to keep a strong façade when you are actually just so tired of having to take that all the time... Hugsxx

 

[Sorrygoodbye]

I definitely relate. I get flashes of bad memories pretty regularly. Sometimes there's a clear trigger, sometimes it's for no reason at all. I hate it. I know when I'm tired it gets worse. I try to stay present and keep my mind busy or just numb myself so I don't care about anything.

 

[WornOutLife]

I'm sorry to hear you're suffering so much.
Sometimes, anything can trigger my worst memories so I kinda understand your pain.

Lots of hugs and love to you.

 

[Weary Soul]

I can't enjoy anything because nearly everything is a trigger. For example I was watching 'Dexter' and a detective pulled a gun on someone and was talking to them and then she shouted ''I said, don't fucking move''. I feel like a baby for saying this but I paused it as it reminded me of verbal abuse from childhood.

I am so god damn sensitive I get offended over everything. I hate it, it makes living so much harder. I feel if I deal with being sensitive I might actually be able to live.

I'm crying more than a newborn about the smallest of things and that most people can't understand why. Hypersensitivity is a curse. I hate being criticized, I hate being talked down to. I am the person you see when people are calling others snowflakes.

Can anyone relate? :(

Yes I can relate.

Life is hard enough, but (at least IMO), it is pure hell for sensitive souls.

I feel like my soul is dying a slow and painful death, and I am so very tired. (One of the reasons for my user name.)

Much love and empathy to you - I am so sorry you know what this is like - from a fellow snowflake :)

On a side note, the nice thing about being referred to as a snowflake (and I realize this is not the intended meaning), is that every single snowflake is unique and brings beauty to the world.​

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[Sherri]

I can't enjoy anything because nearly everything is a trigger. For example I was watching 'Dexter' and a detective pulled a gun on someone and was talking to them and then she shouted ''I said, don't fucking move''. I feel like a baby for saying this but I paused it as it reminded me of verbal abuse from childhood.

I am so god damn sensitive I get offended over everything. I hate it, it makes living so much harder. I feel if I deal with being sensitive I might actually be able to live.

I'm crying more than a newborn about the smallest of things and that most people can't understand why. Hypersensitivity is a curse. I hate being criticized, I hate being talked down to. I am the person you see when people are calling others snowflakes.

Can anyone relate? :(

I can relate in a way, I've been told of at work for being over sensitive...I don't take criticism very well, specially when I know I'm right.

 

[Brokenwithbpd]

I can't enjoy anything because nearly everything is a trigger. For example I was watching 'Dexter' and a detective pulled a gun on someone and was talking to them and then she shouted ''I said, don't fucking move''. I feel like a baby for saying this but I paused it as it reminded me of verbal abuse from childhood.

I am so god damn sensitive I get offended over everything. I hate it, it makes living so much harder. I feel if I deal with being sensitive I might actually be able to live.

I'm crying more than a newborn about the smallest of things and that most people can't understand why. Hypersensitivity is a curse. I hate being criticized, I hate being talked down to. I am the person you see when people are calling others snowflakes.

Can anyone relate? :(

I can!!!!! But I think it's a borderline thing too

 

[Pizarnik]

I totally relate, it's so exhausting to cope with triggers when you're sensitive. Tears and anger appear unnoticed at anytime.

 

[Water-Lily]

Yes. I was always deemed "too sensitive"
Mom: So what if I called you a bitch. Stop crying!
Mom: So what if I beat you stop crying!
Mom: So what if I argue and abuse your dad in front of you, STOP FUCKING CRYING! YOUR TOO SENSITIVE!

Its not that we are sensitive. Our responses are ingrained in us due to our trauma. Its not our fault. Its the fault of the people who hurt us

 

[TriggerHappy]

wow yeah: i've found that i somehow selectively remember the difficult negative stuff from my childhood - i remember all the screw-ups all the hours alone the bullies the rejection from my parents etc... i really struggle to find the good memories as i am older i dunno why they are just tinged with sadness (like christmas desperation but it's just another awful anonymous midweek moment. ok gotta dig out my Smiths vinyls... love you all thanks for making me feel this stuff again.

 

[BandAddict]

Yes, it makes me extremely avoidant of everything. Still fighting the eating disorder voice that attaches to everything around me. "Ohh, ketchup," or whatever someone notices about me eating or my food is enough to put me on edge. I hate being like this, I hate everyone feeling like they're walking on eggshells around me. I even get bothered by shit in family movies.

 

[BornofDust]

Yep. It's hard to enjoy a lot of things when even the simplest things become major triggers. Now I'm walking on eggshells over every little thing, even just simply speaking. Combing that with the constant toxic shame, and life is not really that great for me tbh.

There's nothing to be ashamed of being sensitive, its who you are and if other people can at least accept that, then that's their problem. Not yours.