Same.. Even tho I'm 'only' 24.
Life until 2019 was legit good.
Was social, had the time of my life at uni. Festivals, holidays abroad, was always one of the first to be invited to social outings etc.
Was even about to pack up myself and head to Ibiza to work for summer.
Now I just spend my time reminiscing back on those times.
But I'd legit get sad at the fact that life won't ever be like that again.
Even if I try get better and move away from the want of killing myself. I'm a grown up now, everyone I knew has grown up, sorted their life's out and generally moving on with life
The past two years life has completely fuckn flipped. I've legit lost myself, along with losing so much time that I won't ever get back and can't repeat.
Feeling like a kid that's grown up too fast and that's ran out of time.
Man, When the time comes when I finally balls up to ctb, I hope once I die, I'll fall into a dream state and just reminisce all the good times, one last time.
(I won't wake up feeling sad like I do these days whenever I dream about the past lol)