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iplantoleave
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- May 26, 2021
- 14
I'm 20 years old and I really do want to leave this world. I've had suicidal thoughts since I was 17 and they never faded.. I never tried to get better either, I tried to tell my mom that I feel depressed but nothing came out of it. I've never tried therapy but I heard it's pretty expensive? I have no job right now, just going to one class during the summer.
I think the main reason I want to leave is because I'm so alone, almost every single person I wanted to stay in my life has left or chosen someone else. I'm so bitter and heartbroken. On my days off of school I literally just stay home in bed wallowing in my own pathetic sadness.
I feel guilty because I really didn't have any hardship growing up. I just wish I had people to make memories with, it's really hard seeing everyone around you living normal lives while I'm stuck in a rut. I have absolutely no motivation or energy to make things better for myself. Recently I've just been so self destructing that I'm almost guaranteed I'm going to leave this June.
I think the main reason I want to leave is because I'm so alone, almost every single person I wanted to stay in my life has left or chosen someone else. I'm so bitter and heartbroken. On my days off of school I literally just stay home in bed wallowing in my own pathetic sadness.
I feel guilty because I really didn't have any hardship growing up. I just wish I had people to make memories with, it's really hard seeing everyone around you living normal lives while I'm stuck in a rut. I have absolutely no motivation or energy to make things better for myself. Recently I've just been so self destructing that I'm almost guaranteed I'm going to leave this June.