i feel so alone.

[sadcherrygirl]

I have literally 3 friends and one is my boyfriend. my boyfriend is going through a lot of stuff currently in his personal life and just hasn't been able to be the sweet caring guy he usually is. that sounds extremely selfish but i've been trying to help him none stop and it just doesn't work. i just want him to be okay, i love him so much. recently i went on a trip with my family which they agreed to pay for but i think it would be selfish if i just killed my self right after coming back from a trip. my best friend whom i saw as my platonic soulmate recently decided to cut me off. about a year ago, i cut her off because i couldn't deal with her toxic ness anymore. she would criticize me and i just thought i would be best without her. in about november we got back in touch. we got close again and she turned me to the dark side. i was doing the hardest drugs imaginable and i was just not okay. i didn't know who i was, i completely lost myself. all while going through the biggest heart break of my life so i used getting into back to back relationships as well as drugs and alcohol as a way to cope. that worked until my parents found out and started criticizing me and just attacking me not realizing it was a cry for help. i just needed to be loved. i then got with my recent boyfriend and things just got better, i've been sober and happier. now it's just bad again without my best friend. i miss her so much i have to idea what i did to her. i was there for her she was raped, always cared and never left her side. now i have a few friends and my new so called best friend is always flirting with my boyfriend and i don't know what to do about that. i hate it because before him and i were together he liked her. i'm miserable and don't have anybody to talk to. i just want everything to go back to normal.

 

[drag201]

Hey, If you need to talk about anything you can dm me. It'll be okay, I think your best friend who cut you off isn't a good person. I get you've had a long history with her, but best friends aren't supposed to drag you down like that, you didn't do anything to her, so please don't blame urself for it. It's okay to let toxic people go, we need to surround ourselves w people who make us happy and healthy. And that includes your new friends as well. Can you maybe talk to your boyfriend abt it bothering you or to your friend (if you're sure it wont cause any bad confrontations) ? I hope youre okay, I'm sure things will go back to normal. Stay strong

 

[sadcherrygirl]

Hey, If you need to talk about anything you can dm me. It'll be okay, I think your best friend who cut you off isn't a good person. I get you've had a long history with her, but best friends aren't supposed to drag you down like that, you didn't do anything to her, so please don't blame urself for it. It's okay to let toxic people go, we need to surround ourselves w people who make us happy and healthy. And that includes your new friends as well. Can you maybe talk to your boyfriend abt it bothering you or to your friend (if you're sure it wont cause any bad confrontations) ? I hope youre okay, I'm sure things will go back to normal. Stay strong

thank you so much, really. that's the nicest thing someone has said to me in so long and it sounds pathetic to say but it's true. and with the situation about my friend n him, i've tried talking to her about it and she got mad at me for even suggesting it and my boyfriends best friend who is also my friend asked him about it because it was weird and he told them not to worry about it LIKE WHAT? but again, thank you so much. truly.

 

[Cress]

Your situation with your friends and boyfriend sounds really complicated I don't feel comfortable offering advice how to interact with them without more information. However it's possible that these people may not be the most healthy for you to be around. Ending up in some sort of love triangle if that is the route that you fear it going is pretty horrible and will take a tremendous toll on you.

I know you Explained your desperate for human love and connection But it's important to protect your own Mental health and well being At the same time. I never know what to say in these types of situations I'm sorry you're at your limit for what you feel like you can deal with in life But at the same time I completely understand you feeling that way. I've been there many times myself.

I wish you nothing but the best And I hope you're able to navigate the situation that you're in without it hurting you. Nobody deserves to suffer. My DM's are open if you feel like that will help.

 

[sadcherrygirl]

thank you so much, truly.

 

[drag201]

thank you so much, really. that's the nicest thing someone has said to me in so long and it sounds pathetic to say but it's true. and with the situation about my friend n him, i've tried talking to her about it and she got mad at me for even suggesting it and my boyfriends best friend who is also my friend asked him about it because it was weird and he told them not to worry about it LIKE WHAT? but again, thank you so much. truly.

Youre welcome and dont worry! It's not pathetic at all, don't say that:) I guess its expected from the girl to be mad at you but what matters is that your boyfriend definitely respects u and your feelings and I don't think he would ever let anything happen. Again, I hope everything gets sorted out with everyone and you feel better !! It's all just a tough time you're going through, everything is gonna be fine

 

[sadcherrygirl]

he has been so dry with me and he's been so distant and i just honestly want to kill my self.