I feel peaceful when I imagine holding a cup of SN in my hands.

[ScorpiusDragon]

Is this a sign that I'm truly ready?
I ordered SN and tagamet today. I already have primperan.
I didn't feel scared at all. I just felt peaceful and resigned. I realize it might be a different story once I actually have the cup in my hands, but for now, I don't feel anything except peace.
As the days go by, I just feel increasingly detached from the world around me.

 

[livingded]

Whats SN?

 

[Alchemist]

Whats SN?

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/rules-and-faq.4/

 

[vonvonwantpeace]

Is this a sign that I'm truly ready?
I ordered SN and tagamet today. I already have primperan.
I didn't feel scared at all. I just felt peaceful and resigned. I realize it might be a different story once I actually have the cup in my hands, but for now, I don't feel anything except peace.
As the days go by, I just feel increasingly detached from the world around me.

Same and i'm excited.

 

[bluesky1972-2019]

I have SN, Tagamet and Primperan too. Hoping it all works as it should. Definitely want to ctb when the time is right.
It's comforting having everything in place.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

Is this a sign that I'm truly ready?
I ordered SN and tagamet today. I already have primperan.
I didn't feel scared at all. I just felt peaceful and resigned. I realize it might be a different story once I actually have the cup in my hands, but for now, I don't feel anything except peace.
As the days go by, I just feel increasingly detached from the world around me.

I'm extremely sad about, although I knew it may occur one day. I guess it's the deal on this board. I hope you're in peace with yourself

 

[Oblivion Lover]

I can relate. I felt the same way when I tried to kill myself by overdose a few months ago, but with addition of all the stages of grief before it, maybe because I rushed things. It was weird, being able to go to bed and sleep calmly after taking a potentially lethal dose of three dangerous meds, but it is comforting to know that I won't freak out and die feeling panicked and devastated next time I try to ctb, just emotionally numb. Unless you're taking some drug that affects your mood, I think that not being extremely scared by death is a good sign you're ready, but not really necessary.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

i feel the same way. knowing there's SN that can end my life, wow. what a beautiful way to exit this shit and unfair life. hugs to all SS's friends

 

[Etherealdignity333]

I knew I would end up CTBing when the morning I woke up after I decided it was an option was the first day in a long time I wasn't sick to my stomach with anxiety.

 

[The Mute Viking]

For me, I've been putting off really preparing, not because I am scared or don't want to die.
I'm just so unmotivated to even get it started, it's miserable.

I feel nothing as the date draws nearer, not even peace.

 

[Etherealdignity333]

For me, I've been putting off really preparing, not because I am scared or don't want to die.
I'm just so unmotivated to even get it started, it's miserable.

I feel nothing as the date draws nearer, not even peace.

Feeling unmotivated myself. And I need to get a move on, cause when my money runs out, so do I, and I don't want to end up having to panic hang. Ha.

 

[The Mute Viking]

I can relate to that on some level, Ethereal. I get close to testing it out, but this feeling overcomes me of 'If I test it out, I have a feeling I will successfully just do it and I'm not ready just yet, I have things I have do to.' Then I stop. Then regret it and the other voices pretending to be my thoughts scream ;''You're a fucking loser there is nothing left for you here but suffering, just do it already.'