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Tintypographer

Tintypographer

I am done as of 4-21-2023. Somewhere I am no more
Apr 29, 2020
470
Succes or failure, comfort or pain, all that we really have in this world is anxiety.

This is my own personal feeling on that subject.

Our world of people is driven by anxiety. We drive all human emotion and feeling by the anxiety of what might happen. It could be fear and that's a type of anxiety but the manipulation of our desires and behaviors is the leverage of that anxiety.

Consider the concept of a great job: you apply for the job and the anxiety you feel is that you may not get it. Your behavior to compete with your resume and your interview and keeping up your linked in or references is entirely motivated by that anxiety and fear that you may not get the opportunity. You think you are motivate by the opportunity but the real motivator is the potential that you may not get it. You have anxiety which drives you to work harder and compete and strive to get it.

The job comes with compensation and a host of benefits but what motivates you is the anxiety of losing it or not moving to something greater or missing out on the bonus or options or not growing. Entire industries have sprung up to manage this anxiety and emotional stress. We occasionally build defenses to it: boundaries, standing up for ourselves, yoga, you name it... But society builds and relies on that anxiety to ensure that other's anxiety is lessened.

Bad bosses use the fear, anxiety and combination of carrot and stick to force employees to do work. Significant others use passive aggressive and manipulative behaviors to induce fear and anxiety in loved ones. We are surrounded by it at all times.

I often wonder if the greatest fear for anxiety filled people is coming on a group who are healthy and happy and worry free. I have been at companies where the boss, so angry about performance literally yelled, "I want us to be afraid of the competition, if we are not afraid we are not properly motivated".

I'm not surprised that historical figures such as Christ or Buddah or marx who promoted versions of these ideas of living without significant manufactured fear, were revoked in many ways. The fear of some bad event is a huge motivator. To a certain extent it is useful; not falling off a cliff or eating a toxic plant is of value to an individual. But somehweee we decided it was useful to use this fear as a wholesale manufactured mechanism for motivating behavior.

The curious part of me is that it ties into the basis of this forum. The fear other people have of loss whether it's society anxiety loss of a person for whatever reason such as humanity or dignity or even a productive worker feelings, or the loss of a loved one for the anxiety of not having that person and feeling bad, drives the hatred of this forum and the discussions inside.

The motivation is really about inducing that fear anxiety and keeping it in place for our world and the people in it. You have to motivate others to lessen your own fear and that leads to finding ways to manipulate them through inducing more anxiety.

I can say for myself that peace and freedom from anxiety would come from not existing. Even the concept of hell is a construct whether real or not that induces anxiety to manipulate behavior. If heaven or hell exist then their design as communicated to us as humans is a way to Induce anxiety and drive behavior.

I see a peace and freedom in not existing. There should be no fear of no longer being at all. Anxiety will be gone, fear will be gone. Imagine if that was a choice for humans: "by taking this path you will no longer have anxiety or fear..."

The loss to our growth minded cultures would be indescribable and would probably build a massive fear in all who stood to lose their ability to manipulate.

Just more of my random musings. Probably ideas already thought of by others.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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It's really true that death should never be feared, to not exist is all that we are destined for anyway and I also see death as being freedom. The only relief lies in the thought of no longer being burdened by this existence and all of the problems that it brings. Such a thing as peace could never really exist in this world.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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Have you read Eckhart Tolle's book: The Power of Now? I read it ages ago and for a brief period- it helped...

I agree- we live so much of our lives looking forward with anxiety or backward with regret or fondness. Honestly, I found his methods kind of difficult to employ- it seems kind of natural that you WOULD worry about the future if say- you have financial worries.

Honestly- I ought to read it again because sometimes- any kind of relief is good- if you feel the need to keep going- for whatever reason. Anyhow- as you can imagine from the title- it's all about focusing on the NOW. Is anything REALLY bad right now? Or- is it anxiety about the future that's troubling you?

Most of the time- it is dread of the future that troubles me- but I feel in a reasonable place to predict it because I know what my life's been like in the past! Plus- I'm not sure we DO always feel that great in the now. If we are just sick of life itself! Anyhow- might be worth a read if you are looking for ways of coping type thing.
 
Tintypographer

Tintypographer

I am done as of 4-21-2023. Somewhere I am no more
Apr 29, 2020
470
Thanks. Not looking for ways to cope. I just think about this stuff as a whole. I am not bad off although I am sick physically. I'm ok on work and money and life. I just dont want to "be" or exist anymore and my thoughts fluctuate between "will any of this stuff I do matter in 1000 years" and "why do I do any of the stuff I do?" as thoughts that swirl through my head. I dislike the world I am part of. I don't really want to cope, I just think about the stress I'm under and wonder why and if others think the same things.
 
Thisisme373

Thisisme373

Arcanist
Feb 16, 2019
418
Anxiety is destroying me, everyday, I cannot function or enjoy anything
 
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SuicideDreams

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Sep 7, 2022
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Anxiety has screwed me up big time. Luckily I have Klonopin to combat it somewhat.
 

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