Help I feel like I’ve been two different people

[Lifeiswildsuperwild]

I've never gotten the proper help I needed. I went in for depression a while back. I use to take a lot of ecstasy in high school. Then I had a falling out with my ex. And just I dunno what's wrong with me. Again it doesn't help that I never talked to anyone about my problems- and even if I did I was never fully honest about them. Lying. All I did was lie. Compulsive liar. I don't know why. I really did think I was a good guy too. It's like I got brainwashed somehow. For whatever reason I snapped out of it for now. I just hate how I've conducted my life over the past years. Running into problems but never changing who I was. I just really don't understand. I feel like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde in a way- ya know?

 

[Notabadguy]

Maybe you've bipolar disorder. I strongly advise you to seek professional help. I'm saying that because I had psychological problemas, I didn't seek profesional help, and the outocomes are bad for me, I'm even contemplating the possibity of CTB.

 

[BridgeJumper]

I feel like Im two people at the same time too.
Nihilistic and dark minded, hating life and people and wanting to just sit under bridges in the middle of the night so I dont have to deal with peoples bullshit, but at the same time I love nautre and pretty things, like colourful clothes and want to help people in need? It just doesnt make sense