Venting I feel like ive been awake for a month, im so sad i created this, damn you dmt.

[nosoul]

Literally the only sleep I get is the length of the klonopin, trazadone doesn't seem to do shit. I take at night and morning,I'm falling apart, really having amnesia like symptoms. Body is wasting away. No joy, totally can't feel the world, but as I gather my materials, I'm getting nervous about ctb.

I guess most people feel this way?

Wanting to go but fearing taking the leap/drink?

 

[dreamscape1111]

What role does DMT play in all this? Took too much? 0_0

 

[FuneralCry]

The unfortunate reality is that suicide is simply not straightforward in this hellish world and of course it certainly can be so tiring feeling trapped here. I know that if suicide was easier I would be long gone at this point, I wish that suicide was as easy as just choosing to never wake.

 

[nosoul]

What role does DMT play in all this? Took too much? 0_0

Way too much over 6mo period it's like a death sentence of no sleep no appetite

 

[dreamscape1111]

Way too much

Here are two videos I've found really helpful after getting confused after some deep LSD trips, hopefully, you can integrate, understand and ground a bit more after watching.

 

[nosoul]

Not hallucinating just can't sleep and mind is always anxious and panicked, more because I burned out too many receptors, life is not worth living sadly