chundryshire
Member
- Oct 19, 2022
- 5
the only thing preventing me is my not wanting to hurt my parents and my boyfriend. i dont have any sort of note (because i feel like i could never fully explain why i want to ctb and any attempt would probably misconstrue it) and i definitely dont want this to be an impulse thing, but ive had the means and been seriously planning this for months. i just feel so awful that i was born, i feel so bad for my parents. they feel alien and everyone else feels alien, like the way they live and think and find happiness is so different from me. idk. i suppose im also scared of what could be after death, although ive just about always been agnostic and think its the same as before you were born.