I feel like I’m wasting people’s time

[Pipsqueak!]

On this site specifically. I see a lot of goodbye threads and such and it reminds me how much of a coward I really am. Everytime my date arrives I push it back further because of the dumbest reasons. Sometimes its meaningful like my friends and family will miss me when I'm gone and other times it's because a show or game is coming out and I still wanna be around to experience it. Sometimes is just plain fear. Ultimately the joy a show or game brings me is only temporary but I never learn. Hopefully this month is the last month of dilly dallying.

 

[TimetoGo!]

On this site specifically. I see a lot of goodbye threads and such and it reminds me how much of a coward I really am. Everytime my date arrives I push it back further because of the dumbest reasons. Sometimes its meaningful like my friends and family will miss me when I'm gone and other times it's because a show or game is coming out and I still wanna be around to experience it. Sometimes is just plain fear. Ultimately the joy a show or game brings me is only temporary but I never learn. Hopefully this month is the last month of dilly dallying.

It's because deep down bro, you don't really want to die. You just want to be happy so you can enjoy those things you want to experience. There is no shame in taking your time and you are not a coward. No one on here is a coward.

I am similar……..i see so much beauty in the world and so many good people, its just a shame how things work out for some of us.

Wish you all the best

 

[Sleeper System]

Live.
Don't live.
Die.
Don't die.

Quit. Don't quit.
Noddles.
Don't noodles.

One often finds their destiny on the path that they take to avoid it.

Take your time. Death comes for us all. This place can be a temporary relief just like anything else.
Don't feel like you are being rushed or that you're being judged. Just do what you want.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Bear in mind only a fraction of SS users go on to make an attempt. It's not worth judging yourself over.

 

[koalahymm]

You are not a coward. It's not a small decision to make and taking your time with it isn't something that anyone here is judging you for. If you keep finding a reason to live another day then keep living another day. Death isn't going to get impatient and bail on you.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

NGL, I get envious everytime I see a name get crossed out. I am jealous of the peace that person has achieved. Most recently it was @Lookoutbelow. So know that you are not alone in feeling this way.